Questions about oncoming depression

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Hi everyone,
I have always been a somewhat optimistic person and while not being happy all the time, I always was to pretty good extent. I learned about aspergers at a young age (12) and recognized that just because I had it didn't mean I needed to be miserable because of it. I found ways to continue my happiness by escaping to a fantasy world or getting involved in special interests and always working on social skills as well. This seemed to work for a really long time but recently I graduated college and all of a sudden was thrown into a job working with people with disabilities which has left alot less time for any of my special interests not to mention being out in the real world for the first time has scared me a fair amount. All of a sudden i find myself being a little sadder than usual and while it has been bringing me down a fair amount (and a good amount of it has come with the social difficulties that come with AS) i am still aware that its not depression in and of itself but rather with a cause and reason behind it. I've also been getting flashbacks from the past of negative things that have happened in my life that i ignored before (in order to keep up with my happiness) but now are replaying in my head and slightly bringing me down a little bit. Is there anything I can do to regain more happiness when I know this isn't so much my natural state but external forces weighing heavy on me at the moment (and ones that I may not be able to get out of right now)?

P.S. Alot of it comes from fear especially at my job knowing i have to CONSTANTLY edit what I say to make sure its appropriate in front of the kids

Uridine is the most potent anti-depressant that I have experienced. I discovered this accidentally after I learned that a combination of uridine, choline, and fish oil caused brain cell growth in gerbils (this kind of experiment is impossible to do in humans). After taking 50 mg for the first time, within an hour I became newly aware that: "the sky is blue!". Taking 50 mg every morning, the sky remains blue. Produce by a company called Cardiovascular Research, it is somewhat expensive. Other natural anti-depressants: tryptophan, fish oil, St. Johns wort, chocolate, and aerobic exercise.

Other health information:
Uridine is derived from sugar beets (not the kind you find in the store). Spinach and blueberries help preserve the brain and eyes. Cinnamon lowers blood sugar. Ginger helps clear arteries and prevents nausea.