School is just around the corner...

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Ugh, Summer went that fast. I really don't feel ready this year. It's going to be really depressing tomorrow morning at 7am getting up for school. Not only that, but I have to get the school bus now. I'm feeling really worried about tomorrow for a variety of reasons and it really puts my mood down. Although I feel a bit better at the moment, it's still quite depressing for me.
Ok, so the reasons:

1. Getting up early.
This is very annoying since I always would get up as late as 12pm every day. I'm always in a bad mood when woken up at such an early time and I'm always half asleep through the whole morning, even when I get enough sleep. Also, I always go to sleep at around 4am. Now I'm expected to go to bed as early as 11pm. This isn't near late for me anymore, so I'm still going to bed at 4am. It won't be easy as first, but I'll get used to this hopefully.

2. Peers.
This is by far the biggest reason why I hate school. It's really difficult being in quite a crowded place, especially with teenagers. I'm always nervous and worried when around teenagers in case I look like a noob or made fun of etc.
I really hate crowded areas too. I would prefer to be home-schooled or if I was just teaching myself the education. This is also because I feel that I would learn more.

3. Expected to study.
When it comes to Maths, English or maybe even History, no problem, but I find it super difficult to study any other subject. Not only because I'm lazy or because of the difficulty, but also because I wouldn't have much free time. I'd rather play video games. But I just know I'll have very little time for this. >_<
Ok, maybe I'll have time in the weekends, but they always fly by.

4. Being put under pressure.

Last year, my teachers would've put me under a lot of pressure. Every day, they seem to mention that if I don't work harder, I will be put into a lower class. This really annoys me. It also puts me down and makes me do only worse.
Peers will put me under pressure too. I'm expected to do everything they say, or else I'm hated. Whenever I seem to do something wrong, I'm seriously bashed at. Do I need to be perfect?

5. Lunch time.
This might sound strange, but this is the worst time of day for me. It is because I find myself trying to kill 40 minutes or else I'm considered a "loner". There's nowhere quiet to go and there's people everywhere. There's no classroom I can go to so that I could play my Nintendo DS or something.

6. Why am I disliked?
Darn, come on. I mean, I did try last year and it's just not good enough. Sure, there's two or three people who might say hello to me, but I just don't get why I'm hated by a few people. I didn't do anything wrong to them. Sure, I might be different to them, but I don't get why I'm given out to by this certain person when I do something wrong. Also, I don't get why there's a group of idiots who just plain hate me. Seriously.... wow, just wow. A few people also think I'm a freak. Ha, I heard that conversation, but I mean... I did try not to be a freak.

7. Group work etc.
I'm seriously going to have issues if my History teacher makes us do group work again. Seriously... I just cannot comprehend how much I'd prefer to do the work on my own.
I'll also seriously have an issue if I'm seated beside anyone else. Just let me sit at a desk of my own... please!

8. Special needs
I had a special needs assistant at my old school. I really want one again because I missed a few non-exam classes I didn't like. Also, it did help me cope with problems in my life.

There's also one more reason, but it's well... a bit inappropiate to list here.

If you can, give me tips within the next 4 hours. It's not going to be an easy day tomorrow.

Off topic, but why do I also have mood swings a lot? One minute, I'm happy playing a game or something, but then the next minute, I'm upset, anxious or angry without anything setting it off.

One more thing:
"Where there's smoke.... there's fire."
"Where's the princess?"
"Spooooky."
"Check out the enclosed instruction book."
"When you pinch Wendy's pennies, they pinch back."
"All toasters toast toast."
"That's that creepy Bowser's laugh."
Can you feel the sunshine?
You got boost power!
Falcon PAWNCH!
Wario time!
Mamma mia!

Don't mind the last part... just felt a bit better typing them out.

I'm already in my dorm. Yeah! Sorry your dealing with many of the reasons at least I hated school But besides that, school starting up again is an inevitable part of life as time never stops. Good luck

I have many of the same issues, and I'm starting high school tomorrow (! ) One thing I found helpful: when things became overwhelming in class, I would go the bathroom, set my watch timer for two minutes, and sit down and close my eyes, often rocking. A quiet, two minute break was quite helpful. For waking up, is there some kind of short, vigorous physical activity you can do before school? I sprint 200 yds in a field, and although it's about the last thing I want to do at 6 am, I stay awake.

Well at least you have some summer vacations left ahead of you. I start in a week and this was probably the last summer I can get away without having a job or going to summer school.

I have a LOT of those same problems. I go back to school next week. I'll be in Year 10.

However, I am slightly more optimistic about going back to school than I expected to be. Reasons for this:

- I have been thinking, alright, so I have had a really sucky year...but who says this new year has to be just as sucky? I have thought about the general mood of the past few years of my life, and this is what I came up with:
Year 5: sucky.
Year 6: pretty damn good.
Year 7: sucky.
Year 8: best year of my life so far.
Year 9: TERRIBLE.
Year 10: ???
According to this pattern, Year 10 will be fabulous. And I've got a whole year to prepare for the suckfest that will be Year 11, and then I'll have left school and can spend the even-more-fabulous year after that doing whatever I want.

- I decided it might help to view everything with a sort of detachment, as though I'm not really there and I'm just watching the idiotic antics of my classmates through a window. That way I won't feel fear - it could actually seem quite entertaining.

- I'm starting my GCSEs this year. So hopefully my classmates will all be so busy studying, they won't have time to harass me.

- I'm going to try my new trick of being polite to the bullies, so they get bored and leave me alone.

Hopefully you will be able to find some way to see the bright side of school. I know it's hard, but believe me, if someone had asked me a few months ago to think of four positive things to say about school, I'd only be able to think of sarcastic answers.

im going into my second and final year of college...then after that, it's off to join the working masses

I refused to go today. I just can't take it anymore. :/

I hope things work out okay. Is home schooling a feasable option? Maybe online classes? I don't think that you can teach yourself the material, though. I'm not sure, however.

While Im not facing the same problems as you, I am very nervous that schools just right around the corner. I gotta try to keep myself calm

Fintan, i agree about the school, for me, it's f*****, MUCH WORSE THAN YOUR SITUATION, but at least i don't need to do homework because i have AS, and even if i'm at school, i still get to play videogames 6+ hours every day

I am sorry you were too stressed out to go to school today. Back in middle/high school, I experienced a lot of similar nerves (especially since our school was changing to a new "Block" scheduling system, which lodged a wrench in my sometimes embarassingly sensitive digestive system, so for a while school was less of a place to study and learn and more of a ridiculous chase game because the administration were very conservative and convinced a person could do everything they'd ever need to do in a bathroom in the five minute passing period between 90 minute classes, and refused to give out hall passes.

But it sounds like you're really nervous all around, and for the good, usual reasons. Flipping a sleep schedule sucks, but I'm glad you know you have to do it, and I'm glad you're willing to fit into a new comfort zone as soon as possible. I do remember awesome summers of late night video games followed by sci-fi novels until 5 in the morning, but because of the rigid schedule they cram everyone else into, those are gone. Still, try to see the positive groove as best you can.

As for the peer problem... ugh. I thought high school was just some crazy social experiment where any day now I'd see some guy in a labcoat accidentally fall out of a locker, clipboard and notes in hand. You are probably right when you say you'd learn more academically from home schooling, but I don't know if that's the case you ultimately want. I would grant my stamp of approval if you either had a group of trusted friends, or friend, or even if you were adamant about removing yourself from that stress entirely because you were confident your bookwork would launch you further, later.

But I know while I hated being abused and ridiculed by my peers, and always feared their judgement, I really wanted to be accepted. Not into an ipod-touting, pom-pom squadding, partying drunkenly on weekends "average" crowd, but just a group of friends to do stuff with. I didn't find that until my senior year, and it wasn't even with my class--I hung out with juniors and sophomores, one of which I established a very strong and helpful rapport with, lasting a year after graduation.

Still, it's a shame it had to happen so late. It does sound like you have your hobbies (does anyone not like video games) and are familiar with your likes and dislikes, your limits and goals. Before I smother you with a wall of text, I'll say this: try to remember that those are the traits that define you, and your happiness. You will probably find others to connect with and who accept them.