Am i.........

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Am i.................

1. I feel i dislike most of humanity, i think this when i cross most of the teachers, students; "FILTHY BUG", "PERISH IN HELL", "I SHALL DISPOSE OF YOU" etc. (Sometimes i want to vomit of it.)

2. I laugh at people who get hurt RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME, i enjoy watching some friends of mine being bullied by others, i even laughed at rape victims on TV.

3. I lock myself inside my room as often as possible, continuously thinking ill of humanity.

4. I have disposed of a few minds of people i don't like.

5. I said cruel things to a friend of mine, and he ended up saying he didn't want to be with me anymore.

Does this mean i am SOCIOPATH? hope not

No, you're a normal 16 year old aspie.

What's happening is you're re-directing feelings of frustration and alienation into types of anger. You recognize that your reactions don't match the situations, that's why you made the post.

There are things you can do to help. You're already doing one of the best things, locking yourself in your room. But try to do something that calms you down. Usually stims and special interests. It's OK if your special interest is mechanisms of torture or whatever.

It will get better. You are going through a difficult time right now.

And apologize to your friend, and explain that your brain twists things around sometimes.

Thank you, but even if i'm a sociopath, misantrophe, i still am surrounded by very unecessary people, like i had, still have a s***** teacher every hour every day, the students dislike/hate him, and so do i, but the difference is that the idiot ALWAYS GOES AFTER ME and no them, because i have AS, they only have him maybe an hour or two, while i had him every hour every day, for A HALF YEAR, he's 5 times worse than a grumpy 60 year old matht teacher, i swear!! I also have an ukrainian social worker who speaks with a f***** UP accent and i don't understand it, and she asks me if i understand it for around TEN TIMES A DAY! The students are all spoiled, they complain about them having a danish teacher, BUT I COMPLAIN ABOUT MY SOCIAL WORKER!!
I was close to having a meltdown not long ago (yes, i am in school now), i often go to the toilet when i feel like having one, but i can feel a meltdown building up, and maybe i will unleash it soon enough