I'm still living with my parents who are serious people with no sense of humor unlike me.
They get noisy and try to read into my feelings
Tomorrow I'm going to volunteer at the public access station but in complete fear because of this Satanism Witch (his religion) who's in there once in awhile. The jerk committed crimes, beaten his wives, Saying Libel stuff about people, and he has Multi-Personality Disorder and Bipolar. This guy has been arrested by the police several times and it made the news for stalking women. This guy is a complete JERK! Everyone at the station knows it, even the bosses. I am friends with lots of the people who have public access shows there, back in March they asked me to make fun of him which I did and they've done it to on there shows. It was me dressed like a bum but my face was shadowed out. Though I'm still afraid that he's going to recognize my name and when he hears someone calling me, I fear that he's going to speak to me and threaten me or something. He's rarely there, heck I don't know why he isn't banned from the station. But then again that was 6 months ago.
I have trouble going to sleep at night. I usually stay up until 1am, I have to wake up about 10am which pisses me off because I am still pretending that I have a Boyfriend (TomBoy-Friend; Women who dresses and acts like a guy). I'm starting to cry more. I wanted to go to bed early tonight but I couldn't, I feel depressed and scared. I cried today, I cry a little bit every single morning because I know it's going to be another day living in a confusing stressful world where you can't have spontaneous fun and there's no one that I can relate too.
I'm always seem cold, introverted and give dirty looks to my parents but try to hide it because even though they help me out survival wise a great deal, I'm just angry at everyone because no one can relate to my personality type.
03 Sep 2009, 10:50 pm
