I feel terrible

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It seems like no matter what I do, I can't control the events in my life. Things are constantly going wrong. I deal with depression and anxiety like a lot of people with AS, but medication and talking to counselors has never seemed to help. I don't really want to be alive, but yet I don't want to kill myself. Living feels like a prison.

The worst and, sometimes, the most beautiful prison.
But often the worst, yes, I agree

Hope you'll find nice people here to discuss with and to cheer you up as much as possible.

--- this last year for me has been one step forward and heaps of things going wrong all around me. Very exhausting!

I have found from experience that if i just keep moving every day - walking, weeding, reading the newspaper, library searches ,lots of reading (in short bouts so i can do some other type of motion activity). Rest and accept whatever amount of sleep happens; music to suit the moment and my feelings, walking dogs; watching that my geriatric cat doesn't run off with the meal i cook...

Such ordinary things remind me that life just turns and turns. And today my stars actually said
"... you've been doing it tough... The darkest hour is just before the dawn. Always"

So, i've taken in a big and deep breath and wait for the dawn.

Stars aren't my be all and end all guide - only sometimes. But ,the beauty in remembering about dawns is that they always emerge again and again ... so do we after whatever experience we have.

I did intend to keep my reply short, but dawn's can be so captivating !

Cheers to you Dennis