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10 Sep 2009, 2:28 pm

ok i hav as and i struggle alot with life im 18 and complety unsupported i got discharged from child services they never like me i was awkward and i never got put to adult services there is no way in the world i could go to a doctor and ask and well my mum dont no i still cut myself but it getting worse im feeling worse i so mixed up and exploding and fustrated inside i dont no how to deal with it i hate my life i hav nobody no friends and not a gd relationshop with anyone it not that i want i dont no what i want but i cant cary on i hav had a few thoughs of suicide and i hav tryed before wen i was 15 ! i cant get a jobn so i got nothing i left skl at 15 so i got no gcses so i doomed and im too unstable for college or anything were othere ppl are involved i dont no were to turn so i cut i nno it wrong i a freak i no i shouldnt but i cant find the words for how i really feel i hope sumone understands i hate noone understanding me no has the time to listen



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10 Sep 2009, 2:44 pm

I have a problem with cutting too, though I haven't done it in almost 3 years. What is it you would ask a doctor for? As hard as it may be to do, talking to a doctor might be the best thing to do right now. Maybe present them with a letter eplaining all your questions and feelings?


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10 Sep 2009, 3:49 pm

You seem quite anxious and agitated about this. I'm confident that you can find a physician who will listen to your situation and provide quality care. Having family involved may not seem desirable right now, but they may have to become involved at some point.

A friend of mine cuts. I've seen her scars, heard her talk about it, but don't pretend to understand the experience. If possible, try one of the standard alternatives to cutting (rubber bands snapping against the palm or wrist, ice cubes held firmly in the hand). There are too many cases of people cutting to relieve stress, and hitting something vital by accident.

Hope you can find the care and support you need.



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10 Sep 2009, 3:56 pm

My partner used to be a cutter and though it was scary she asked for help from a mental health professional. She is a wonderful, sweet person who also had many other self-harming behaviors and her therapist was able to help her stop with a combo of talking and medication.

She is no longer into cutting herself, or starving herself, or taking illegal drugs, she is no longer on the therapeutic drugs either, she can maintain her mental balance now without them.

Please get the assistance you need to reclaim your wholeness and arise from this anxiety the wonderful caring loving person that you are deep within.



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12 Sep 2009, 4:43 am

There are times when I do things like cut my wrist (nowhere near any vital artery) when I am depressed, angry, or otherwise in need of some way to get rid of pain or stress.I am NOT suicidal..btw...It just feels like some sort of stress/pain reiief.


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12 Sep 2009, 9:52 am

I occasionally self-harm,b ut don't tell my mental health professionals, because they will just assume it's a way to get attention or misbehave, and will threaten bad consequences if they find out I do it again (I'm in an institution, open ward, but they can send me to the locked ward, which I was at for over a year and is horrible). For me self-harm is rare enough that opening up about it would cause more harm than keepign it secret.



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12 Sep 2009, 5:34 pm

ChangelingGirl wrote:
I occasionally self-harm,b ut don't tell my mental health professionals, because they will just assume it's a way to get attention or misbehave, and will threaten bad consequences if they find out I do it again (I'm in an institution, open ward, but they can send me to the locked ward, which I was at for over a year and is horrible). For me self-harm is rare enough that opening up about it would cause more harm than keepign it secret.


That's a serious drag... it is so treatable given proper therapy... but locked wards and lock down would just make it worse. Gaaah. :x