i believe my mom hates me

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my mother seems to enjoy making a scene whenever we fight at home or in public and can't seem to control her behavior on the spot. she makes a big deal outta the small things and goes from 0 to dramatic rage for them.

once when i was 8 yrs. old, i had trouble understanding my homework and needed help. but instead, she threatened to hit me with her belt if i'm not capable to understand it. and one time in high school, i contemplated suicide and my mom could care less.

she's always been like this since i was little. and what's worse, she calls me names, makes threats, and will contradict me every time i try to talk with her. i think our relationship is officially non-exsitent and i don't know what to do.

You're 25? Get as far from her as you can and make sure she doesn't know your address or phone number. Send her a birthday card once a year to let her know you're alive. I don't know if she's borderline personality disordered or what, but she is obviously harmful to you.

That's abuse. I'm unsure what the law is like for adults, but children hit with a belt can and should be taken from their homes. I'm unsure if your mom is involved with physical abuse, but at the very least it sounds like emotional abuse, and in some states this is illegal as well.

I could imagine that the law protecting dependent adults with disabilities is valid in the U.S. or in other countries as well, depending on where you live.

Im not sure how to tell you. I had some similar issues with my dad growing up, about to the point that i demonized him. To this day, i am still not sure what i simulated in my mind due to AS, and what actually happened. It eventually led to a meltdown that, to this day, i cannot remember happening nor what was said. Be sure its not your AS amplifying the situation and creating scenarios that didnt happen. Trust me, its quite disturbing to look back on it later in life and not remember what was real and what was imagined.

It doesn't matter, no one deserves to be threatened to be hit by a belt because of individual differences in academic performance.

Are we talking about your moms or mine LOL! (enough said LOL!)

As Leila suggested, find another place to live if you are still living with your mother. But don't try to figure her out, diagnose her, or otherwise understand her. You don't have to apologize or explain other people's nasty behavior.

I've cut off contact with several family members due to how they treated me. I have little patience or tolerance for poor treatment, so I simply ignore them. They seem to prefer this, since apparently I'm an embarrassment, disappointment, and failure. I also have known NTs who cut off contact with other family members, including mothers.

For now, I suggest a long break from any contact with your mother. Then you can think about what to do if you want to revisit your decision.

Yeah, I know how that feels. I had a stepfather who acted exactly the same way when I was a young boy. He would scream and shout if I missed a tiny spot cleaning the kitchen floor, and smack me for not sitting up straight at the dinner table, and tell me things like, "all of my friends think you are a worthless piece of sh"t, and I am going to keep smacking you until you start pretending you are not one".

My mother had her own issues, too. When I was having my major meltdown into schizophrenia and was forced to move back in with her and my stepfather because I had no other place to go to (when I was about 25), she did not care one bit about how sick I was getting. Instead, she took me out into the world and forced me to work one job after another. And every time after I lost a job because of my symptoms, she would smack me and chastise me for "choosing to act that way". Thankfully, my biological father helped me arrange to get on SSDI, and once I was on that, I moved back out of that house.

I rarely answer the phone when my mother calls these days. Currently, she is trying to nudge me into more steady employment at some fast-food joint, while I am much more interested in becoming a FT student when winter quarter starts. I'm not taking any dough from her, so officially, she has no say in how I handle my life these days, and that pisses her off.

Some people were just never meant to be parents.