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Hey all,
I have trouble dealing with change. I will be fine for about a couple of months, and then all of a sudden it will hit me, 'omg it's october all ready.' At the end of the year i have friends leaving uni, i will go home and work for the holidays, some friends i will never see again etc and it makes me sad abd happens at the end of every year.

I have a good memory and remember a lot of details about every year, and i put all the years in a mental filing cabinet so to speak so i can drag a file out one day when i'm bored and remember that year. It's fun sometimes, but sometimes it's a burden cause it makes me sad. I get so sentimental and often think 'i remember this time last year (or 10 years ago) when ___ happened.' Some people can just breeze along and not think about it, but every few months i'll stop and reveiew everything that's happened and file it away, eg. in the End of 2009 File. Why do i do this?! I don't want to forget everything, but i don't want it to burden me. Also, sometimes i feel like time moves so fast i am just a spectator and everyone else is joining in with the action. Does anyone else feel like this? and what do you do to stop it?

Luv,
Cad

I can relate. But I don't know of a way to stop it. I don't think that's possible. When you really think about it. Stopping it, if you could, wouldn't always be in the best interests of the other people involved.

I can't tell you how many people have moved in and out of my life. Not many of them were main characters. The ones that were I held onto for deer life. And.... They all just moved away, within a period of a couple months, and all to different areas. It seems like it's time for a new chapter in my life. If I like it or not. So now I'm pondering what's next. I'm pretty optimistic about it.

As corny as it sounds. Sometimes you just gotta go with the flow and hope for the best.

lol i bet no one else replies to my threads because everyone is sick of me whinging

this is off topic but Bowie is better than Jimi IMO

What does Jimi have to do with anything?

OMG, man - story of my life. That's how I've felt for at least 20 years, now. Everyone else - my younger brothers, cousins, friends of the family - has "grown up" (become ensconced in careers, gotten married, had kids, etc.), while I've stayed pretty much the same, not really changing, never really progressing. It's as though the rest of the world's on a conveyor belt, and all I can do is stand still and observe as those folks and their lives rush past me. I see (and feel, sadly) myself getting chronologically older, yet I don't feel like I'm "aging" or "moving" in any other sense. It's pretty terrifying being this "stuck" in time. The only thing that helps even mildly to alleviate the anguish and frustration is physical movement - like traveling in a car, etc.

david...bowie? oh, never mind....*wanders off awkwardly*