i feel blue cause i'm so wierd.

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i got very interested in something and kept showing someone pictures and talking about it...and they are just like "you done yet? dont act like this around anyone else."

i know it's little but it's like that a lot of the time- i cant be myself because people think i'm too wierd, obsessive, or misinterpret my motives for things. i feel like i'm so abnormal. while thats good at times ot be the oddball....it sure feels lonely.

ive been so depressed about it lately. and it seems like i always have an odd emotional response to little comments and actions and what not. i feel like i have wacked out emotions or something. it's either i'm way oversensitive or way undersensitive. grrrr.

and i hate how fake i am all the time. no one knows the real me...cause i think they would not like me...think i'm too wierd and emotional and high-maintainance or something...since i need all my personal space and think different and stuff. even the person i can be most honest with about most of that stuff doesnt know the way i feel about them. >.<

*sigh* done whining.

That's why we're here dear . I think all of us have felt misunderstood and under appreciated but I think it is worth it to be yourself. The farther away you get from the real you the more lost and unauthentic you will feel. We all have to put on masks from time to time but to rely completely on a mask will make you miserable I think. I had a friend once who was very socially successful but complained to me once she didn't who she really was. Who you are is all you've got really and I hope you learn to value it. Do we have a special interest thread where people can cut loose and talk about their special interest? What is your special interest Spazzergasm?

i dont know what my special interest is at the moment...depression's left me not knowing what to like. and even if i had my secific special interest, i wouldnt know how to go about talking about it.

Weird blues huh?
Been there. Still haven't made it into a song. The blues style is easy enough but I can never make it into what I want.
I'm sorry this is almost irrelevant.
I'm weird like that.

In seriousness though, this social stuff is all stuff that can be learned through experience. Don't let the inevitable failure involved in learning get you down.
In your case, you could learn ways to guage interest in what you're talking about. Personally, I never go too far in a subject that the other person isn't interactive with. I try to judge interest off of interaction.

You are not alone. Depression is a problem for many of us, and for many more of us being "different" is something we resent. What I find that helps for when I get lonely, or tired of faking it; Is writing in a journal or diary, I can always be completely honest, and it will never judge me. Also it gives some perspective thinking through things, which generally leaves me feeling better at the end of the day. I hope that this helps you out, I know how bad feeling weird sucks.

((Spazzergasm)) If it helps, your user name always makes me smile.

awwww, thanks.

Anytime.

It's easy to feel blue - we all do it more than we'd like. I feel low quite a lot because I'm not happy with my personal life or my job - I don't think I'm weird, I'm just frustrated by a general lack of progress and a general lack of understanding on my part.
But you don't seem weird to me, and I firmly agree with KittenWithAWhip - definitely a username that raises smiles.

I think what really helped me when I was a bit depressed about being so different was that I just was myself despite what anyone said. My mom told me that I should change a bit so other people would like me, but I greeted the idea with a horrific look telling her that was like lying about yourself. She told me I was just vain. But, I stuck with it (i started about a year ago) and now I have got more comfortable around people. In fact, I have actually changed by just staying myself. And the change was all positive. =D I am much more energetic and happy and I talk much more, I have really good awesome friends that will tell me when they think I am going to do something innappropriate or downright stupid.

I dunno, it worked for me. Though I still get frusterated when I lose stuff, or forget and when I just cant focus anymore no matter how hard I try. and sometimes I just feel soooo lonely (i think the ocean inbetween me and my friends kinda helps to). Its hard, but things usually look up if you have a good attitude. =)

I like your username too. =D

I think I would feel more blue not being weird, I like being eccentric and
sometimes people do take an interest in something that fascinates you.

What makes me feel better about being the odd one is realizing that I need to give myself credit for what we do and what we have to put up with. Dealing with people is often difficult for everyone, even for NTs. You just need to have the confidence to be yourself. If people criticize or reject you, try not to overreact. If you accept yourself and stay confident and positive, people will accept you for your differences over time, even if they react negatively at first. If you have a problem with someone, that's their problem. Their criticism might have merit and if it does just take it into consideration in rational and practical terms instead of judging yourself.