I'm sick of this ****

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I'm sick of this s**t.

'Everyone gets treated badly at school' is what she says. Yeah, everyone gets treated fricken badly. Every bloody person gets treated the way I do, treated like s**t. Treated like s**t and then thrown out on to the side of the road. I've been bullied for the past 5 years, I've been diagnosed with depression, I've had every inch of self-esteem or self-respect torn away. 'Everyone gets treated badly at school'. Yeah, everyone gets treated so badly that they cry themselves to sleep and still have nightmares about the past when things have gone to the extreme.

It is so damn easy to say that 'everyone gets treated badly at school'. So damn easy to say that it will change next year when I get put in another god damn class. So easy to pretend that the school gives s**t about me. But I know differently. Where ever I go, whatever I do, nothing is going to change for me. Everyone at this school treats my like s**t; my beliefs are ridiculed, and the fact that I have absolutely no self-confidence or self-esteem leaves me a target.

And I am still sent there. Still forced to suffer this god-damn punishment, and I want to know why. What kind of person could do this to me? For that matter, what kind of damn god would do this to me? I also thought I believed in a greater power, but now...I'm not so sure.

It's easier for people to make blanket statements.
Having no self-esteem and getting bullied is a cycle, one you can only really break out of it if you have no pity for yourself, and concentrate on what's ahead.
Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.

Tell it to those people who say it to you.

Tell it to those people who say it to you.

For so many people today, life has become a rock-'em-sock-'em contact sport. It has been a long time since I have been in school, but I still have to deal with being bumped around and pushed and shoved and laughed at even at 59. Sure, some people certainly do seem to have it a lot easier, but even they still have to either "measure up" to how things are wherever they are or suffer some kind of social consequences. And yes, probably everyone here very well understands that does not make anything any easier or less painful for you.



If you had no self-confidence or -esteem, how were you able to come here and post? See, they target you because you dare to be just who you are ... and that makes them very uneasy. They go around kissing each other's asses and compromising themselves in order to be accepted, and they are just trying to bully you into being like them. But, you are not, and that is good. You are real, and you know that. You are honest and loyal and considerate ... and they want to beat that out of you. Ah, but you are better than they and you are going to stay real!



Ah yes, He damns what they are doing, and they will eventually pay.



I do not know, but my ignorance there does not keep me from still being exactly who I am.



Possibly someone with his or her own struggles and who does not know what else to do.



He did not do this to you. In fact, He is the source of your strength and courage to come here and vent among people He has enabled and empowered to care.

Hang in with us, FieryGatoh! All will be well after the smoke clears.