NomadicAssassin wrote:
I need something like a cult or group, that has daily goals and responsabilities, or something similar, I keep having bad thoughts in my head and I can't tell my parents I'm afraid they'll just throw me in an institutute, and I can't handle being a place like that, dose anybody have something on these forums like this I really need one and there's nothing near me in my town to join. If anybody has something like this I would love to join / hear about it. Something sort as bold as like being a member of the military.
This is kind of an off-the-wall suggestion, but for immediate relief, go to
http://flylady.net/join.asp, sign up for the emails, and do what they tell you to do. Whoever you live with may be startled, but they'll also be delighted.