11 Nov 2009, 4:41 pm
My sister's friend had a spouse that was addicted to porn for a while, and he recently cheated. I have little respect for actual cheating. Of course, the female friend drew out the usual, recycled, not really as true as she thinks conclusion. "Oh he's watching porn as a substitute to ME." and if she bitched in his face to get him to stop, rather than use what is clearly a persuasivce mouth on him, she wanders why he cheated?
My sister thinks men have a sex drive that is as small as our's. uhhhhhh nooooooooooo.. helll. I told her right out "they don't call it rageing hormons for nothing'. They just say "rageing hormones" to make the term look cute? I don't think so. I said "I'll tell you what I know about their sexual hormone and what they go through on averege." I hardly wrote about the guy in question. She knows I'm not cool with cheating. I simply was explaining that males think about sex alot, and copeing has alot of challenges. No, went through her little head it did. (oh but her attitude changed as soon as I tried hateing the target. not.... cool... I prefer to hear both sides.)
She doesn't consider sexy anything valid. I mean by even tiny messure. They prefer misery over acceptance of themselves. In fact, she feels that just thinking or feeling it is a "horrible sin", and she shames herself then starts praying to God when it happens. She said the cheater in question cheated because of porn. "He watched porn and it lead to this." heh sure... That completly denies ALOT of other things here. So now she hole heartidly believes "porn is a hidious sin that leads to more sins". A sin, ok, but leads to? She thinks feeling desire is sinful. Even that laying one finger on herself like that is a big fat SIN. wow!
She's oh sure SURE it would work the same wasy for everybody. Despite the fact she has no proof that it was the root cause. She said that crap over and over. It's when she put "that's how he fell by the way side". That I got really mad! Fell by the way side? Now that's really pushing it, in my oppinion. Oh I see, he's going to burn in hell, no matter what now. From how I see it, it's more aimed at the wife's "forgiveness". He's apparently going to hell until she chills out. 
Does any party care to use comminication without "BURN IN HELL" for once in their miserable lives? Why did I need to hear this crap to start with? God was brought it without the slightest hesitation! I believe in God but wow! (she likes men? Really?) I feel this is just so ignorant.
According to her standards now, I must be a real burn in hell wanta be. I never cheated in my life, and am SO... very ... #$% tired of people fasuly accusing me of being "unfailthful" BEFORE I do anything with a person to start with. 
We were starting to more civily lay down our points, and she then wrote something that drained me real good emotionaly. "I choose to be Heterosexual, and I like men, but won't do them till I marry." Yeah, good luck with that sis. 
"Just because we have natural feelings doesn't mean we do them." It's almost like she's trying to straighten me from permisquous sex and bull.
Kissing, rolling, snuggling, what's wrong with that? What's wrong with looking at his body and his to hers? Nothing! She just called sexual desire a choice. Youch. What sucks.. the big ol' kicker... this is the one family member I told about being a Bisexual. I have been in denial till I was in mid 20s. I'm tired of being shamed and wronged. Here we go now with more God. I don't go to church anymore because of my issue with them calling it a choice, and their holier than thou pride attitude that I have yet to not whitness everytime buddy worshipers, Aithiests, and Mormons are mentioned. I think it's wrong to look down on others. We don't have the athority. She told me. "Oh it's a really poor choice to not go to church."
If place and attentance mattered this much, we all need to live in the same country and go to one single building. how is the whole planet going to fit inside. Can't happen, so no. I do my business at home, because I think they are wrong. After we finally settled it, and I let her live in her lala land there, she then tells me I have supposedly been a b***h to her for a long time, and that it's wearing on her that I hate her gutts. OUCH!! ! 
What
the
#$%.
This whole year, I have shared funny videos I find online. Chatted with her in msn about what's going on "lately" and said bye when I got off. What the hell?! I asked "What did I do? How am I wearing you emotionaly?" All she put was ".. sigh your'e just hard to live with." I'm liveing on the other side of two states?! How am I possible hard to deal with. 
Boy do any of my kin sure know how to make me feel like crap without knowing they do it! I happen to be learning the bible. I don't need their view points rammed up my butt with a oven poker!
