I've lost one of my closest friends.

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I've lost one of my closest friends, today. The two of us are complete opposites. She likes the men. I'm not into men, at all. She likes Much Music and Top 40. I prefer anything recorded between 1964 and mid-1984. She's a total girly girl, and she has hair down past her butt. I'm so much of a tomboy, that some people mistake me for a man, which I take as a compliment. She wants to look like a supermodel. I'm happy with my appearance, though I could stand to lose 50 lbs and get down to 200 lbs. She likes to watch TV. I prefer to go in the Internet. She shows off her body, for example she wore her bathing suit to the mall, with an open sheer black blouse over top of it, unbuttoned. The most of my body that I feel comfortable to show off, are the bottom half of both my arms and my legs. If she's angry at anybody, she tells them to F*** off. I can't find any reason that I would want to swear at anybody for any reason. She jokes around about sex, and I don't see that topic at something to joke about.

Just recently, we were at superstore just two weeks ago, today with another friend of mine, getting groceries. She rammed into the back of my left leg, twice with her grocery cart and she almost ran me over, the second time. That leg is on the mend, as I'm typing this.

Just last Tuesday evening, she snapped at me, telling me to apologize to the young couple with the newborn baby, because of the banging noise that a gift for a family member of mine made on the table. I started feeling really crappy about myself and I had a meltdown, crying my eyes out. The next day, that woman called me and asked if the emotions were real, or if I was putting on an act. I was not putting on an act, when I was hiding my face, and than I had to throw my ice cream cone in the garbage, because I was too upset at myself to eat it.

She phoned me again on Friday and started asking me questions about that incident, again. I broke down on the phone and told her that it was a meltdown that I was having and not to mention it, again. She thought that I was having a temper tantrum. There's a big bleeping difference between a meltdown and a temper tantrum. She did come over and apologize, though. The two of us agreed that we should take a break.

She phoned my place twice, yesterday when I was gone at my parents trailer, and the first message was a fairly decent one. The second message was quite a bit colder, and she told me not to bother calling her, because she had a migrane and that she wasn't thinking straight.

I tried to phone her back, but when she picked up her phone, she didn't say anything and than she hung up on me

I've lost one of my friends and it's very hard for me to accept that, at this time.

aw, sorry to hear about that. maybe she is going through some crap herself... i don't know. still, i hope it turns out alright for you. my best friend and i are kind of opposites as well.

I am in the same boat as you.

Two of my closer friends have taken a hike on me over the last year. One was a small town mayor that I assisted after a flood hit his home and community, after I had been helping him for awhile, he told me it was akward for me to help him and we had a falling out. The other friend moved away to live with his fiance. I have known these people 25 and 15 years concurrently. I am deeply hurt by how the dynamics have changed in these friendships over the last year, even though one friend is congenial when I run into him (but is very terse when I try to contact him), and the other friend and I still call and email each other, but I feel very abandoned by his moving away. Another factor that played a part in this is that both friends and I have AS, and other mental/behavioral isssues, so there was a bond because we understood one another.

I am in the process of trying to make new friendships with people my age, but even as a very socially active person, I have not found that spontanous person yet. I would like someone to share a cup of coffee and conversation with.

I was given a piece of advice from my mentor at church a few years ago regarding contentious friendships. It was "Let it be, and/or let it go." Sometimes we need to give a person space to figure their life or problems out, but we also have to understand that the friendship may be over and it is time to seek out someone else. I hope this little piece of advice helps.

I'm sorry to hear that.

Im sorry, It sucks when you lose a good friend

I am sorry, CockneyRebel. Hope you feel better....

Sorry to hear that CR. I know losing a close friend can be really heartbreaking.

There's a really close friend I lost some years ago that the memory of has been bothering me lately. I keep wondering was she mad at me, sick of me being difficult, or was it 'crossed wires,' or confusion about what went wrong, too, and just didn't know what to say back? Or giving space? Ugh, I may never know, and after 8 years it still won't go completely out of my head. But the good times were really good, and over time it seems like the end really was mostly a misunderstanding (too late to do anything about it now, tho).

I'm sorry to hear what happened. It sounds like an argument though, not a total break-off. Maybe she was just hurt because you didn't answer her calls first and wanted to put you through the same.

It was quite rude of her to ask were your emotions an 'act'; I don't blame you for being angry.

Thank you for your support and responses. I'm sure things will mend themselves. I just hope that it happens before Christmas.

Sorry to hear that. I hope things get better soon.

JSB

We were friends again for a few days, and than she told my two other closest friends and I that she can't hang out with us, anymore. The older woman is too old for her and she's too quiet, as well and she doesn't take care of herself. The 41 year old man is too immature for her and he never told her his life story. Than there's myself who has the autism and clinical depression. She can't be around me, either. She can't be around any of us, because the three of us are too different for her.

When were were having supper at the clubhouse last night, she kept on looking at me and crying, because she knew that she hurt my feelings, even though I didn't shed a tear.