25 to life

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So this is my birthday title and birthday speech its about 3 minutes past midnight and i dont feel any different i thought id turn hairy and gray with sagging balls jk. Anyways all my birthdays have been gimmick like and ive come up with odd titles for my 24th birthday i used a 24 tv show gimmick and for my 23rd birthday in 2007 i used the movie the number 23 as a title. So i guess with all that said its 25 to life baby. A friend of mine told me a couple months backed i have lived a quarter of a century and have nothing to show for it and that ive lived nearly half my life and have nothing to show for it that i should become a roadie in a band so i could get girls and get laid and end my misery. but i dont think thats the true answer. Maybe i dont have a gf because the worlds about to come to an end and everyone and everything in it will go down in flames like in that movie 2012 or maybe im meant for an eternal path of solitude and have no choice but to be a celebite eventhough i find the idea atrocious. They say that we were all meant to serve a purpose in life and i still have no earthly idea what my purpose is. I know im not the savior of the human race like john connor or anakin skywalker. In fact so many people have turned their backs on me and have let me down quite a number of times i mean i could have all the money in the world it still doesnt change my situation i was born with a curse a disease called asperger syndrome which controls my whole genetic make up and im not proud of it if i could i would tear it away at the throat with one of my knives. Every year i think its going to change but truth is not one god damn thing has changed except for one thing my mother is now disabled and thats something i didnt see comming at all it was a major shock to me while she was in the hospital in the icu in a coma i had to drink vodka bourbon whiskey so i could black out and forget about it because it scared the holy s**t out of me. i guess in other words 25 to life means things can only get worse before they can get better and true salvation comes at the very end of the road right now i dont find any salvation. I can remember in early 2008 when my neighbors beat me up and i told them that i dont want to live to see 2009 that i dont want to live to see 25 i can remember that moment like yesterday here its almost the end of 2009 and the begining of a new decade and i still dont have what i want in life. My neighbor says what i want is what ill never have and what i want is what i can and could never ever get in life. Maybe hes right. But at this point i could care less what happens to me in life each day ill live it like as if its my last i choose to live on the edge. God doesnt exist to me i wasted time praying to a non existing god for all you religious people on my list im sorry but i dont care anymore nor do i believe in god for what hes done to me. He doesnt exist ive phased him out of my mind. With that said i look forward to getting wasted tomorrow and hammered and spending time with my mom

thats all folks

Why didnt you charge your neighbour with assault when he beat you up.If someone laid a finger on me, Id be calling the mounties quicker than you can say Stetson.

what is vodka bourbon whiskey? Didn't you get violently ill mixing all that ?

i'm sure you would get really ill.

I would report someone that beat me up.

Not having a gf doesn't mean the world will end.