20 Dec 2009, 5:12 am
I had a bad day today.
I recently cut the tip of my finger after finding out that a guy that I was falling in love with was a prick and a liar, and after having a big fight with someone that I work with and having to take the problem to my boss as the person i was fighting with did not want to resolve it.
Those are the main events that happened in the last few days.
To top that off, i am in my early 20s and living alone in a new country with no family support.
My mother died when I was 13, my father is distant and estranged from me, and my sister lives in another country.
I always had trouble communicating with other people as I'm known to be blunt, harsh, critical and cranky. I don't mean to be 
I also sometimes have trouble understanding people's comments, like it takes me minutes, or hours or days to fully understand what someone meant...
I am not good with descriptions, I get straight to the point and never elaborate.
I have trouble explaining or talking about some things sometimes because there is so much I want to say but I just don't know where to start or exactly what to say.
I always am completely honest about everything, and that doesn't seem to be working with normal people...
I don't like to b***h about other people and I always stand up for the weaker person, AND THAT, ALONG WITH ALL I HAVE MENTIONED ABOVE, DOES NOT MAKE ME A POPULAR PERSON.
I feel wounded, physically and mentally. I feel like an alert cat, if you know what I mean, because I am a young single female, so many people want to take advantage of me in various ways and I'm getting all spiky and angry because I have to stand up for myself. But I still bloody get hurt sometimes! But I am strong. I will get myself up again and I will be calm and collected...
Btw, do I sound like I could be an aspie?
21 Dec 2009, 4:48 am
