CerebralDreamer wrote:
This is something I struggle with at times. Adding up all that I've been through, sometimes I just hate everything and everyone. I begin hating people for nothing more than their capacity to cause harm. It's a sense of misanthropy which extends beyond humans, towards anything that resulted from natural selection.
I guess you could say that goes toward hating life itself. I don't like feeling this way, and it distresses me more than anything. It's just that this isolation, the constant rejections to friendship and dating, it adds up. It begins to weigh on me, and I wonder whether it's me or them, and if I'm justified in wanting to watch the world burn around me.
When I watch news stories where hundreds die in a terrorist attack, I don't know whether to be happy or sad at this point. When I see compassionate acts, I don't know whether to be joyful or angry. I just don't know what to feel anymore. I don't even know what I should feel...
Hey there........I get what you mean. I often think these things myself........but I also have my own peaceful philosophies. I am a fierce misanthropist and have very strong veiws which I rarely express(due to stunned and horrified looks from people). I am willing to concede that there are wonderful human beings, although I can count them on one hand
I have spent may years working on the idea of unconditional acceptance and I do believe in my spirit. As long as I behave honourably, I am indifferent to humanity.
And as someone mentioned, I stopped watching the news years ago. I do not need to see any more human depravity and manipulative agendas which I do not subscribe to nor understand.
Take good care Cerebraldreamer.........and love thyself.......because you can.
Micchsta