Basically, I've realized I do want to spend my life w/ a person (I'm romantically attracted to guys b/c I don't like boobies

)...
But what are you supposed to do when you realize there is no way you can be in a relationship w/ someone without emotionally damaging them due to lack of desire for intimacy (which is a good thing, cause I'd rather not have a panic attack or worse while being intimate/guaranteed...

) and having to put up w/ my sensory/social issues? AKA, I know I'd = constant stress for a potential partner
So I feel I must continue to do everything in my power to prevent my friendships from growing too much (in case other feelings develop). I feel like sh** all the time now...
Love is very complicated. Heck some days I feel I'd rather face a monster than ask a female I'm attracted to on a date. I tend to lock up when it comes to things like that.