I'm ok with myself but the world aint...

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Hey all. This is kind of my last place to turn for any words of encouragement. Id like to hear from people who have what I have. Aspergers. I am in the lowest low of my life. I have had to take a leave of absence from work for 3 weeks already and im going to have to take more...I just so lonely and so seperated. It is so much to ask for some affection? Is it so bad to be noticed every now and then? Am I asking too much to not have to apologize for every argument me and someone else has because my words didnt come out right and they took it wrong? Im just tired of people saying "hang in there"...theres nothing to "hang" for.

I'm sorry, I've been at that point before. Things got better though although I still feel very isolated in certain respects. Part of the problem is that aspie or not our society is really kind of Hopperesque, very alienating. And then people are sometimes just hard to live with and hard to live without, Sartre's play No Exit is a good read for illustrating this. As Aspies we feel the isolation even more intensely. I am paranoid that a lot of people are quick to judge my idiosyncrasies and think I'm stupid or psycho, but I guess you can't always wait for someone to come a long, you have to put yourself out there, and work at it.

I can't be of much help because that's almost exactly what I think...

My lowest point ever was a few weeks ago, but I still have not made it back to working every day ... and I might never. To try to keep my head out of my troubles, I do my best to keep my focus on trying to do things for others.

I saw this quote in a self esteem book

"what matters is what you think of you"


It means that all you can do is believe in yourself, and do your best.

I feel the same way, as well. Why can't people just accept me, the same way that I accept them?