Feeling overwhelmed, frightened and discordant.

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Hi everyone,

It is my sons birthday today and all my family came over last night.......it was terrifying. I mean, I always need a couple of days to recover from social gatherings, but I feel really down today and VULNERABLE . I am a pretty strong person but there is nothing like the uncertainty of "togetherness" sometimes to break me. I don't usually suffer this much as my family is pretty predictable, but there was something wrong with my antennae last night. I was getting everyone wrong, my stepmother got offended at something I said and my son got upset because one of his presents didn't work and I just felt like sitting on the floor and bawling my eyes out for him.

No-one was sitting in the chairs I wanted them to sit in and other really insignificant stuff. I am usually better at cognitively dealing with it, even if it takes a lot of energy, but I was under the weather last night. I just couldn't get my mind around anything. And so loud, and multiple conversations going on. I just felt like covering my ears and rocking away while humming to myself in a really loud voice. My goodness.

There is a fair bit going on in my life which is easier to deal with without all the noise. My goiter(enlarged thyroid) has become bigger since last ultrasound, the heat and humidity here in Oz is unbearable (33 - 36 degrees C), I am waiting for psychometric testing for AS and ADD/ADHD, which I am really nervous about because I know it is going to be very draining and I am going to have to talk, and a friend of mine is behaving "strangely".

As King Arthur said when encountering the killer white rabbit in the Monty Python movie "Search for the Holy Grail"......

RUN AWAY, RUN AWAY!! !! !! !

Yep, I am mucho freaking out today........

Very, very quiet please.........

Mics

I hope that you feel better, soon.

You are certainly not alone in feeling overwhelmed ... but of course, you know that ...

I just do my best to focus on whatever I can actually do at any given moment.