Letting People Down?

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Well it has been a while since i have been on the website had to refresh my password and all but im back on, 16 now, Male, Homeschooled and about to drop a class, and i am starting to feel a little depressed about something. My parents are both very helpful with me and my life however, its no secret i've already noticed that my dad is either sadened or worry about me and my mom is just plain flat out really worried and sad, and so i come to my topic i have no job and no freinds, i sit at home and maybe play a game for some hours and a little school work, sound pretty ok, and for the most part it is, but i feel as though i am stuck in the path of life right where you meet adolescents, and i should be at the point where im getting ready for my fututre. I feel ashamed that i have my problems, i "mentaly" beat my self up for lack of words alot because of them, i am terrified about the upcoming years, as im closer to 18, and dont feel i am going to be able to succesed in my life with my current state. I have asked many quests to my therapist and have gotten the sames awnsers in reply to each one of them " well only you can help with that" "i dont know what to say" "that stinking thinking stop doing that" and if none of those come up then it the IDK face i get from him, this has gone on for 3 years, so let me make this clear i really am starting to see alot of disapointment in my therapy in general. Can someone please tell me why my therapy is like it is, and how i can fix my life so i can go back to being capable of doing things because i seem to not be able to anything with Fing it up or something similar to that?!

Who do you feel you are letting down? Yourself, your parents?

When I was about your age, I too was terrified about what the future would hold. Actually I was terrified about everything. I couldn't stop worrying and obsessing about negative things, mainly because I felt very afraid out of my comfort zone. My comfort zone being home. I just felt as if going to school was too much for someone as brittle as me. And guess what, I was right. However the only reason I ended up failing miserably at certain things, and the reason why I felt so weak was the fact that I was always nervous, always thinking of negative things. I predicted only doom and gloom for myself, and it always happened. But why?

I realised that obsessing and thinking all the time about whether or not humiliating or bad things would happen, caused me to be so nervous that it actually caused those things to happen. If you are an obsessive worrier, then you need to stop. You can't allow yourself to be consumed by your fears. They will only come true as long as you are thinking about them.

If I were you I would try and go to therapy with the intention of trying to stop any negative or worrying thinking. If you can do this, you will see how much progress you will be able to make. Good luck...

I've let down a lot of people, when I was your age. My dad told me one day, the summer that I was 15, going on 16 that my disability was going to hinder me from living a normal life. I gave up and became a hippie, and I let everybody down. I didn't care.