13 Feb 2010, 9:42 pm
Okay here's my story and why I decided to post at "The Heaven" today.
Why basically me and my girlfriend was suppose to see each other on valentines day but it got turned down because:
1) My mum can't deal with so much things
2) My girlfriend can't travel places on her own
3) Babysitting 
It sucks having to not have my own freedom sometimes and it sucks that i'm STILL being treated as if i'm a child.. AGH! Why did all of a sudden i'm living an autistic life? I sometimes love it but the fact i'm constant behind barriers, there is no way I life like everybody else and be like everybody else...
Again, every valentines day, I would be alone as always... I hate it and not being able to spend it with my girlfriend, it would either be online or playing computer games to solve my problem.... It doesn't always work for me.
I just want to be able to spend it right just for one day. 
13 Feb 2010, 10:24 pm
14 Feb 2010, 4:29 am
I know how you feel, I cant see my bf today as I have to write my over due essay it makes me very sad as its the first valentines that Im in a caring relationship.
We are going to do a nice valentines day together in a couple of weeks time when Ive finished my esssay. Perhpas you could do some treats with your gf on another day.
14 Feb 2010, 12:39 pm
That actually sounds like a great idea.... But now all of a sudden I just can't get a hold of her one single bit, i'm so upset, she's been acting weird all day and I really don't know what I've did wrong.
I just don't understand its like we are happy and now the next I'm worried to death, I'm scared she doesn't want me anymore and doesn't really love me the way i'am, I feel I don't belong in the world, I hate valentines day.!
Worst year of my life!!
14 Feb 2010, 5:23 pm
Ahhhh... I believe my girl just got through to me and I got through to her, so we are all good now... feeling a little cheered up 
I guess valentines day ain't really nothing and she understands... she thought I shouldn't rush it too much.
17 Feb 2010, 12:23 am
Good to know. It's probably a little premature to dismiss 2010 as the worst year of your life anyway, considering it's only been six weeks. 
