I hate my life

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My husband has told me I can't pursue the love of my life(biology) and that I have to
go to school and do what HE wants me to do online so I don't shirk my childcare duties.
Something he deems profitable and enjoyable. He's told me all I do is waste money to help our son with autism with
speech, ABA and his medical care. That no I can't take 1 biology class over the summer
and get a job to pay for it but I have to stay home and be a SAHM. I want to take cell and it's only
a 10 week class. Every SINGLE time I enroll to take any classes he gets nasty and talks about
how stupid I am. I'm so sick of it all. I want my freedom back I want out and most of all I want a job
with insurance that pays so I can tell him where he can shove it.

What is SAHM?

I don't know how you got into this situation where your husband thinks he can order you around, but I hope you can work it out soon, as this is an intolerable situation for anyone who doesn't want to take a submissive role in life.

Good luck.

I can totally relate to biology being love of your life, since the love of my life is physics. Doing physics was my life time goal since I was 9, and if my career in physics was taken away from me, I would feel like life itself is being taken from me. I won't be able to handle it.

So, my personal advice to you is just devorce your husband. Even if he did let you take your biology class in the summer, do you really want to abandon your career after that? I don't think so. I also don't think he loves you anyway. If he did, he would respect your dreams.

I can relate with you also. I quit the economics college that was what my parents wanted for me and I will study for the admission exam for the physics college as soon as I get better from the depression. It was a difficult decision since economics is high pay with many jobs and physics is low pay with few jobs but it is what I like, and I´m following my heart even if my parents cannot understand that. I totally suport you. You should do what you feel right regardless of what other people think (well at least sometimes). And it is only one class!

SAHM is "stay at home mom".

There is more than one side to things and you are upset right now. Try to think back -- did you not have a discussion with your husband about childcare and responsibilities before having a baby? If it included career plans for you then remind him of this.

I wouldn't advise you to throw away what is at least several years of marriage based solely on this. That's a fool's move. If there are other issues you cannot share here and the situation is intolerable, leave. If you feel it is worth salvaging, fix it. The most important thing for you to do right now is to open some communication with him about this. He may not even be aware of the level of impact this is having on you and you are clearly feeling that this situation is not fair to you.

In fairness to the two of you, bear in mind that unless you are financially well-off and don't mind your kid(s) being raised by strangers that someone is going to have to be responsible for the child you both made. When you both opted for that path, you both made certain life decisions and chose to put this little life FIRST, above and beyond your personal ambitions and above and beyond if you're now finding that you're sick of it all.

Here's a twist on this idea: If you now find staying at home intolerable and would prefer to be the primary wage-earner, you may need to bring up the idea of being a Stay@Home DAD with him! Depending on your life situation, there is also the option of staggered shifts where you could work/school in the evening and he could have a turn taking care of the kid(s). You've probably covered this with him, but just in case it wasn't discussed there it is.

I hope you can leave this man, and pursue your dreams. No adult human being has the right to curtail another adult human being. It is just not natural.