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I'm so confused about life!! !! I mention to my parents that it seems when I "open up" you get to know me or basically I show my true colors or basically be myself. (AKA NOT scared or nervous etc.) I tend to have bad behavior. My parents say there employees don't know what's going on in there lives but IMO I can't imagine NOT opening up to people. I like getting to know you and you understanding me my life issues etc. IMO it "should" bring a friendship closer but perhaps (I don't know what reason) it pushes people away. IMO for me to have "good behavior" I'd have to basically be scared/nervous the rest of my life (in job/school etc.) Did I always have bad behavior in school/work NO It was when I stopped being nervous etc. that you saw my "trueself" and I had bad behavior.

my true self was never accepted for who he was so he made me. you do what you have to to cope with life

I used to be. Nowadays the things I have to say may have legal significance, concerning the patent office etc. so I can't share that. I'm not sure I really have much else to offer so I live in seclusion for the most part.

I do not require much from my friends.
I do not require emotional support, or a connection.
I just do things with my friends.
Like play games.
Usually games where I can battle them and yell in excitement.
When I was younger I did more things alone.
I remember that I had a entire birthday party centered around playing a shooting game.
My birthday schedule never really changed much (except this year, because I did not do anything special for my birthday).
This makes my life a lot easier.
And it makes me not need new friends, although I am slightly sad.

This was some background information to explain that I do not give away much personal information to my friends, because I do not need to give or to receive such information.

I used to open myself to people. I don't do it any more. I think I opened up to the wrong people. It's like giving them ammo in some cases. I know how you feel, though. If I don't control myself and not be impulsive, life is more boring, but I offend less people. :shrug I don't know how to tell you how I handle this. I decided it's a self-control issue.

What bad behavior? Are you breaking a rule? Jealous people may be lieing.
People want to think they are better than you but if they aren't sure then they
try to make others think so, I think.

I am always completely open about myself. I even analyze my own psychology on order to try and learn things about myself. Personal experience has taght me that being open and self-honest makes me feel smarter, more confident, more comfortable with myself and less conflicted internally. Seems I have been becoming happier every day since I started being completely honest and open. My philosophy is that if somebody doesn't want to be your friend if you're open, that person isn't a real friend and should be ignored.

Zeldapsychology, I hope you learn the psychological root of your "bad behavior" or else find some sort of outlet so you don't feel the urge to do such bad behavior. I at least hope that you see this site as a place where you can be yourself. I hope most people here do. I believe that, deep down, people aren't all bad. I believe that when obessions, compulsions, phobias, social norms and religion are taken away, most people are like the "noble savage" character archetype, more or less. Maybe not entirely noble, but certainly not a murder-happy maniac.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Noble_savage
Of course, everyone's true self is different, but I think most of us are fairly decent people. An unusually strong urge to do bad things could be the result of some emotional issues you need to think about and resolve.

Please note that I am not a psychologist and that most of this is simply a personal philosophy that I have based on personal experience.

EDIT: One more thing. Bully_on_speed, I'd like to see your real self. You may have been rejected before but we here at WrongPlanet might accept you for who you really are. I'm certainly curious to see who you really are.

Thanks for the support guys. On the topic of bad behavior as other Aspies you don't know what you did is wrong until you are almost fired or whatever then you go "Oh so X is a bad behavior I didn't know" and I truly don't know as other Aspies what's "normal" for them is odd for me (gossip and I remember at work laughing over 2 lizards having sex and I was like what's so funny then they mention it I said oh and saw NO HUMOUR!) Also I'm "Clingy" IMO hugging you hey how are you etc. Going to the teachers office daily (which I've mention here in the past) I didn't know these were bad behaviors.

I remember my boss saying if I've heard of sexual harrassment I said no. I'm so naive and feel like I don't know anything!! ! Sure knowing of AS etc. helps but will "normal" people see my quirks and look past them or because I don't follow "social rules" get fired/ or labeled as having "bad behavior." You made a good point that perhaps emotional issues lead to this "bad behavior" and IMO it's a need to be wanted/loved in a way. I LOVE my family don't get me wrong. but to have friends or companionship etc. something NT's know how to have naturally and I seem to fail at. IMO if I had these things alot of the bad behavior would diminish. For example hug your boyfriend NOT your coworker every day LOL! OR have a Psychology study group (go to Psychology club BTW tryed this hated it) so maybe study group and chat with a friend about Psychology instead of bugging the teacher. Those are ways I can change the behavior but as it stands now I HAVE NO boyfriend or friends so those options are just options and nothing I can implement.

i dont understand that stuff either. i just pretend to be someone who does

I used to be very open. Then I got tired of advice from pushy people who want to fix my problems that I'd rather address on my own. Now I tell co-workers, etc. very little because they're less exasperating that way. And besides, it seems like they want to do all the talking anyway, so I let them.

Guess where the bad behavior really is

1.Other people looking at lizard porn or other porn at work... FIRED!

2.If you hugged someone a lot and they suddenly decide to NOT tell you
to STOP, and tell the boss instead, then they are TRYING TO GET YOU FIRED!
(some countries especially USA have a twisted rule that touching people is OK
unless they don't like it, then its sexual harassment even if they don't tell you
not to do it, so the safe thing is not to do it. It may even be sexual harassment
to look at someone or talk to them if they don't like it, but I believe that such
things should be countercharged or taken to court, which is what they are
allegedly meant to avoid. BECAUSE the employer is liable to be sued for sexual
harassment, even if the one doing it to you blames you for it. If you state your
case to the boss, he really has to fire both people to avoid getting sued.)
TRYING TO GET SOMEONE FIRED is BAD BEHAVIOR.
TELLING ON SOMEONE WITHOUT TELLING SOMEONE THE RULES IS BAD.(*)
SOMEONE SHOWING YOU PORN AT WORK IS SERIOUS HARASSMENT VS. HUGS

3.Asking questions to the teacher is NOT BAD BEHAVIOR. A teacher who
won't teach should be fired. I asked all my teachers LOTS of questions.
It is their job to teach. They are there to answer questions too.
TEACHER REFUSING TO TEACH IS BAD BEHAVIOR.

The social rules are on your side except where they forbid touching.
* Whoever told the boss about your "bad behavior" broke a social rule,
no tattle tales. Since they did that first, I suppose you could tell the boss
who watches porn, touches, steals, but they are worse because they tried
to get you fired without telling you why, and the boss now knows you are naive,
so he should ignore the "tattler" and think about firing them as trouble makers.
But don't give him your list of rulebreakers until he says you're fired, because to
avoid an SH lawsuit he may have to fire everyone involved as soon as he gets it.
THIS PARAGRAPH IS OPINION NOT ADVICE^.

Just because you aren't NT, doesn't mean NTs are good, nicer, friendly,
or even following rules better than you are.

there is a difference between hiding yourself, and not blaring out about you

Depends on many different factors I go through a phase like system my behavior changes depending on what music I listened to lately or what I have been reading