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There is nothing special about me other then my 'special status'.

My fears, inhibition, ocd, and social incometence have put me into complete isolation with nothing but a laptop and wifi conection. I have no job, no money, disability was rejected, unemployment was rejected, i dont have anyone to talk 2 about this, i was looking into suicide to end this all but the countless hours of watching shows on hauntings basically prooves your personality dosent end at death, there are recordings of ghosts answering questions of NTs!

So now if i commit suicide, it would not end my concious, now i really dont knw what to do, life or whatever it is after death is a eternal phenomenon, and i dont beleive in religion, there can be a god, but one who does not interfere with te universe, so i really dont know what to do, the isolation really starts to F with you after year 2.

I'm a complete atheist, but since I find the supernatural to be entertaining nonetheless, I'll counter you here based on the "rules" I've seen and heard about ghosts/poltergeists.
They only exist due to a certain hangup from their life that keeps them from moving onto the next life(be it heaven, reincarnation, whatever). Granted, if your AS is your hangup, you'd be screwing yourself over by committing suicide. You'd be a persecuted ghost being harassed by the living, and probably wouldn't be able to move on unless you could accept yourself for who you are. Why not do that while you're still living and save yourself the hassle?
I'll step aside to let the others speak up on the other reasons not to do yourself in.

Death is just the other side of birth. Since energy can neither be created or destroyed you're going to have to go somewhere and become something. Why go with a heavy mind of sadness and depression? It will surely influence the next thing you experience since every moment is conditioned by the the preceding one.

You are special. Just as you have the potential to be sad and feel worthless, you have the potential to grow and make the world a better place. Though you're very depressed you seem to have the sense not to kill yourself. Don't let depression beat you.