Dear blue_bean,
My mood fluctuate between the extreme everyday since high school. It's not bi-polar becoz bi-polar changes in months or years, not hours... I don't know what it is, but it sucks. The fluctuation has smoothed quite a bit after anti-depressant treatment.
It's hard when you're "indulging" in the negatives, I know how it feels, nothing can cheer you up. Even tho we all know that this will be gone and happiness will come again, we still feel sad.
Embarrased to say, but I found that the only thing that makes me happy when I'm upset is the guy(s) I like show that they care.
Have a good rest tonight, the sun will come out tomorrow =)
Melbi
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Melbi wants to go back to the mountains, where she belongs.