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Candy2604
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04 Aug 2010, 8:40 pm

I'm so depressed atm as well as so confused. I'm currently lying at the back of my car ATM cos I am scared to face people as I don't know how to communicate or how to act. I'm so annoyed cos mum has kicked me out of the house so I can do something productive but this is all I can do. I was diagnosed with as wen I was 14 and completly denied it at the time but now I feel like I totally hav it know my parents don't think I do... They keep saying get a life.... They have no idea how I feel, I feel autistic and disabled n totally scared of people... I just want to be normal n know what to say n how to act... Small talk is pretty normal... I can't even do that... I don't brush my hair or teeth or take any value in how I look like I used to.... Wat is wrong with me?! I just want to be able to hav coversations like normal ppl



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04 Aug 2010, 8:54 pm

Your parents think this tough love will help you but they are mistaken. When you were 14, you were diagnosed. You should be able to get services. I'm sure there are others here who can give you more practical advice than I can. Please keep in touch with WP, you shouldn't be out there without support. I know how paralyzing it is when you are depressed. How old are you? Are you still a minor?



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04 Aug 2010, 8:59 pm

Im 19. This anxiety is so crippling. I'm taking pristiq n feel like it's not working at all. My family say that their suffering but have no idea how much I'm suffering. I hate it cos all my issues are invisible as it's all in my head.



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04 Aug 2010, 9:10 pm

Im 19. This anxiety is so crippling. I'm taking pristiq n feel like it's not working at all. My family say that their suffering but have no idea how much I'm suffering. I hate it cos all my issues are invisible as it's all in my head.



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04 Aug 2010, 9:19 pm

You need someone to advocate for you. Maybe you should go to the doctor that prescribed the meds and say they are not helping. Often people have to try different dosages or different meds before they see results. I would hope there would be someone there who could point you in the right direction to get services. You could apply for SSDI; it doesn't seem to me you are capable of working right now. You need to find the right person and tell them you need help. I wish you well, there's a lot of ignorance out there. I hope you find someone who understands that you truly are incapable of taking care of yourself right now.



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04 Aug 2010, 9:36 pm

If you can, go to a relative or friend and stay with them until you can make some long-term plans? You'll need to decide what type of career you want and what type of schooling (if any) you want to go for. Otherwise, try and find a shelter and contact some form of disability services that is available to your country and town, etc. No matter what your long-term goals are (if you have any) you need to get some kind of a job. I'd suggest something like office work/filing papers, a library aide (cataloguing involves almost no people), or being a stock person in a grocery store (I have no idea what your work experience is, so I'm just throwing out random stuff I know isn't to people-oriented). Heck, gardening or construction could work to depending on your issues. You need three things; help and support + a job and a bit of luck :).


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05 Aug 2010, 12:07 am

i do have a job- i work in the seafood department at a supermarket....but i find it soo hard cos i cant even communicate with my workmates and it is making me sooo depressed...im always so timid and my mind is always blank and im always scared of people as i dont know how to act or what to say!! im so sick of it...i just dont know if its aspergers or really bad anxiety. the reason i dnt brush my hair or my teeth etc is cos my mind is sooo confused and im just like mehh cant be bothred...thanks for all ur advice guys..its just sooo annoying cos whenever i try to explain to my parents how i feel, they just dont understand....when family friends come over i make an excuse to hide in my room cos i dont know what to say or how to act....i just want to be able to socialise and be care-free...im sooo sick and tired of not knwing whether its aspergers or not....



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05 Aug 2010, 3:15 pm

It's probably extreme anxiety being exasperated by the aspergers. You could always try to start making conversation by commenting to a worker whose not busy about a lobster that's doing something silly :wink:


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