Hello zeldapsychology.
I haven't experienced everything you are going through but the feeling of depression is something I understand.
Finding a way to feel comfortable with the simple things in life can be nice - truly enjoying just making yourself a refreshing drink, or anything, to take your mind off depression when it happens.
For many aspies, this kind of confusion in life is not healthy and is overloading, so we owe it to ourselves to find ways to cope. ^^
I hope you feel very well soon, or even today, zeldapsychology. *Hug* ^^
A fine day to you.
You are capable.
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