Suicide Letter

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Okay, the suicide isn't real...
But it feels like I should, but I'm not, I'm scared on what's going to happen when we die.

I can't handle it. I need to leave RIGHT NOW or risk dying... My mother bipolar, depressive, abusive. I cannot handle it. I need to leave where she cannot find me or I fear that she'll drive me to kill myself. I can handle it until I get my Year 10 certificate, then I want to leave and do my Year11,12 somewhere else... then come back when I have my independance to leave whenever she starts on me.

I have no friends or family to go with, I feel like organizing a group of aspies in a similar situation and renting a room in queensland. Anyone up for grabs o.o

Sorry to hear of your pain, Anicho. Please don't harm yourself. You are already being done enough harm. I was once in an abusive household. I got out, and had the freedom to decide whether or not I would ever return there. It's wonderful!

Your first cry for help shows that you don't want to die. That is good. Next, you have to find someone to talk to, locally. There may be social services to help you to live on your own. Please don't suicide. You are young and full of promise. This situation, however painful, is temporary. Do you have access to a school counselor? That may be beginning. They may know of resources available to you. Don't give up!

I hear you. I feel much the same way, that if I stay in my current situation it may come to that, or I'll inadvertently kill myself by exacerbating my health conditions because of the stress I'm under. But both of us need to stay strong. I'm a lot older than you are but the message is the same. Try to hang in there.

~Kate

I lived my whole life with my bipolar\psychopath mother doing crazy things on me without any family help, lack of financial conditions, etc, not to mention lots of problems with AS. Just one thing to say: get away from her when possible, in my case seeing her once a year would be enough.
Unfortunately I didn't have chances to get out or something, and I paid a very high price, don't let the same thing happen to you. Believe me, facing AS and bipolar mother is too much for anyone.
Forget suicide thoughts, when you get away, you'll feel much better, it will be like taking a weight off your back, and it will be much easier for you to deal with AS or anything, believe me