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Seanmw
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17 Oct 2010, 3:34 am

and for some reason feel like doing a mournful wolf-howl.
i miss my GF sooo much, i wish she would call =(...
she's always sleeping because it helps with the nausea she feels from the chemotherapy
but it means that i don't get to hear from her often because she's rarely awake for long.
thus i worry about her, my anxiety gets bad, and when i have not heard from her for days, i feel like the best part of me has been stripped away; i feel empty and sad...
zoloft helps a little, but it only takes the edge off.

not sure exactly why i'm posting this.
but it does feel a little better to get these feelings off my chest and talk to people.


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17 Oct 2010, 4:59 am

Go ahead - I'll howl with you - maybe we can form a pack and all howl together.
Bless you (not that I have any special powers to make a real blessing - only wish I did)
I don't know you - but maybe your pain can be mine for this day at least - and you can feel free for a while.
Hug from solo x



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17 Oct 2010, 5:36 am

Seanmw wrote:
and for some reason feel like doing a mournful wolf-howl.
i miss my GF sooo much, i wish she would call =(...
she's always sleeping because it helps with the nausea she feels from the chemotherapy
but it means that i don't get to hear from her often because she's rarely awake for long.
thus i worry about her, my anxiety gets bad, and when i have not heard from her for days, i feel like the best part of me has been stripped away; i feel empty and sad...
zoloft helps a little, but it only takes the edge off.

not sure exactly why i'm posting this.
but it does feel a little better to get these feelings off my chest and talk to people.


:( I hate being away from my boyf.
i hate not knowing if he's okay.
and i just feel so unsafe when he's not here.

just saying/typing it does help.
just think how much you'll look forward to it when you see her. :)



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17 Oct 2010, 8:41 am

Sowlowsolo wrote:
Go ahead - I'll howl with you - maybe we can form a pack and all howl together.
Bless you (not that I have any special powers to make a real blessing - only wish I did)
I don't know you - but maybe your pain can be mine for this day at least - and you can feel free for a while.
Hug from solo x


*lonely wolf howls with you*

aww, that's sweet, thanks


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17 Oct 2010, 9:13 am

Seanmw wrote:
and for some reason feel like doing a mournful wolf-howl.
i miss my GF sooo much, i wish she would call =(...
she's always sleeping because it helps with the nausea she feels from the chemotherapy
but it means that i don't get to hear from her often because she's rarely awake for long.
thus i worry about her, my anxiety gets bad, and when i have not heard from her for days, i feel like the best part of me has been stripped away; i feel empty and sad...
zoloft helps a little, but it only takes the edge off.

not sure exactly why i'm posting this.
but it does feel a little better to get these feelings off my chest and talk to people.


Seanmw...just so sorry and I hope her sleep is restful and restorative. I'd be worried too and must be especially difficult being geographically distant.

I thought of something though! From the story 101 Dalmations, when the puppies were in need, Pongo would instigate "The Twilight Bark" where all the animals across the country side would know, all the way from Pongo & Purdy's house in London! (Maybe that's like your mournful wolf-howl). We wish your gf well, via long distance (Scotland, in my case)!


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17 Oct 2010, 9:20 am

Man don't take zoloft...did you know most of the time it CAUSES depression?

If you wanna be happier, eat healthier. Eat the recommended diet for aspies.

No gluten, no dairy, no processed food.

Get some vitamin D from the sun.

It's really sad to hear about how many young people are on zoloft. It's not neccesarry, you are using it to mask depression that you get from eating a bad diet like most young Americans.



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17 Oct 2010, 11:44 am

Seanmw, I definitely know the feeing of separating away from your loved ones and especially when you haven't even heard from her, you start feeling all sorts of feelings, what I normally do in that case is try not to worry to much and I would just think that she will be ok.

I distract myself with things to do and keep patience until a certain she calls or text or whatever, it seems to have worked for me so far. :wink:


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17 Oct 2010, 12:45 pm

I'll howl with you. :O)


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17 Oct 2010, 1:32 pm

It's stressful for me, too.

Except for one WP member here (LiendaBalla), there are virtually no Aspies near me.


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24 Oct 2010, 10:28 am

Seanmw wrote:
Sowlowsolo wrote:
Go ahead - I'll howl with you - maybe we can form a pack and all howl together.
Bless you (not that I have any special powers to make a real blessing - only wish I did)
I don't know you - but maybe your pain can be mine for this day at least - and you can feel free for a while.
Hug from solo x


*lonely wolf howls with you*

aww, that's sweet, thanks


Very welcome :) how ya doin? How's your GF doin?



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24 Oct 2010, 10:34 am

At least you have someone to miss.



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25 Oct 2010, 12:25 am

Sowlowsolo wrote:
Seanmw wrote:
Sowlowsolo wrote:
Go ahead - I'll howl with you - maybe we can form a pack and all howl together.
Bless you (not that I have any special powers to make a real blessing - only wish I did)
I don't know you - but maybe your pain can be mine for this day at least - and you can feel free for a while.
Hug from solo x


*lonely wolf howls with you*

aww, that's sweet, thanks


Very welcome :) how ya doin? How's your GF doin?

she seems to be doing alright. Not too much longer on the chemo, prolly just a few more weeks she says.
though now they're trying to figure out why she's having so many severe headaches.
They finally decided it's her eyes. Something about her eye muscles being weak... but anyways meds aren't really helping with the pain from it, so they're going to do a surgery to correct it.


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26 Oct 2010, 12:46 pm

Sorry to her that she has more to go through - hope it all comes good soon. Hope your doing ok - still howlin? x



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26 Oct 2010, 4:27 pm

Sowlowsolo wrote:
Sorry to her that she has more to go through - hope it all comes good soon. Hope your doing ok - still howlin? x

a little. though i was able to get through to her on her cell last night for maybe 3 minutes before she fell back asleep again, and talk for a bit, so i'm feeling marginally better.
But i still reallyyy miss herrr.


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26 Oct 2010, 9:28 pm

Seanmw wrote:
and for some reason feel like doing a mournful wolf-howl.
i miss my GF sooo much, i wish she would call =(...
she's always sleeping because it helps with the nausea she feels from the chemotherapy
but it means that i don't get to hear from her often because she's rarely awake for long.
thus i worry about her, my anxiety gets bad, and when i have not heard from her for days, i feel like the best part of me has been stripped away; i feel empty and sad...
zoloft helps a little, but it only takes the edge off.

not sure exactly why i'm posting this.
but it does feel a little better to get these feelings off my chest and talk to people.


I understand. My mother went through chemo as well and she slept constantly. I have always had issues with feeling lonely due to not fitting in and that just amplified them . I would suggest that you search out activities and throw yourself into them wholeheartedly. I joined a community service club. I noticed that even though I wasn't that great with communication, people in the club were more sensitive to other people and went out of their way to be friendly to me. Sometimes busy activities take your mind off things and can make you feel useful and better.



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27 Oct 2010, 1:20 am

cmyoung wrote:
Seanmw wrote:
and for some reason feel like doing a mournful wolf-howl.
i miss my GF sooo much, i wish she would call =(...
she's always sleeping because it helps with the nausea she feels from the chemotherapy
but it means that i don't get to hear from her often because she's rarely awake for long.
thus i worry about her, my anxiety gets bad, and when i have not heard from her for days, i feel like the best part of me has been stripped away; i feel empty and sad...
zoloft helps a little, but it only takes the edge off.

not sure exactly why i'm posting this.
but it does feel a little better to get these feelings off my chest and talk to people.


I understand. My mother went through chemo as well and she slept constantly. I have always had issues with feeling lonely due to not fitting in and that just amplified them . I would suggest that you search out activities and throw yourself into them wholeheartedly. I joined a community service club. I noticed that even though I wasn't that great with communication, people in the club were more sensitive to other people and went out of their way to be friendly to me. Sometimes busy activities take your mind off things and can make you feel useful and better.


yeah, it helps a little to keep busy.
I don't really have much to do around here though.
there's college, but that only takes up a few hours a day. There's household chores, but too much such dull, tedious work bores me.
sometimes i might escape into video games or reading, but i just can't seem to enjoy them as much lately.
she's just always in my thoughts and i worry about her & think about her.
& i'm always calling, each time hoping that maybe if i'm lucky, that she'll be awake enough to answer her cell =(.
But alot of the times, even when she does answer, she's so tired that she just drifts off again a few minutes later =(...


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