cmyoung wrote:
Seanmw wrote:
and for some reason feel like doing a mournful wolf-howl.
i miss my GF sooo much, i wish she would call =(...
she's always sleeping because it helps with the nausea she feels from the chemotherapy
but it means that i don't get to hear from her often because she's rarely awake for long.
thus i worry about her, my anxiety gets bad, and when i have not heard from her for days, i feel like the best part of me has been stripped away; i feel empty and sad...
zoloft helps a little, but it only takes the edge off.
not sure exactly why i'm posting this.
but it does feel a little better to get these feelings off my chest and talk to people.
I understand. My mother went through chemo as well and she slept constantly. I have always had issues with feeling lonely due to not fitting in and that just amplified them . I would suggest that you search out activities and throw yourself into them wholeheartedly. I joined a community service club. I noticed that even though I wasn't that great with communication, people in the club were more sensitive to other people and went out of their way to be friendly to me. Sometimes busy activities take your mind off things and can make you feel useful and better.
yeah, it helps a little to keep busy.
I don't really have much to do around here though.
there's college, but that only takes up a few hours a day. There's household chores, but too much such dull, tedious work bores me.
sometimes i might escape into video games or reading, but i just can't seem to enjoy them as much lately.
she's just always in my thoughts and i worry about her & think about her.
& i'm always calling, each time hoping that maybe if i'm lucky, that she'll be awake enough to answer her cell =(.
But alot of the times, even when she does answer, she's so tired that she just drifts off again a few minutes later =(...