I was happy but now I'm depressed :(

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Hello everyone. I am very depressed right now. I'm not sure why. I was happy up until today. Work has been stressing me out lately. I feel like quiting but can't. I don't feel respected. I feel inferior. I feel like I shouldn't be doing my job. I feel like I have failed. The head honcho of my work never acknowledges how hard I work. The only thing he focuses on is the negative aspects. It's not really his fault. He gets s**t on too. But, I still does not make me feel any better. I try and talk to my mother about this but she takes his side and says what he was talking about does not apply to me when it does. I feel I am good at nothing. I am a worthless, piece of s**t that makes too many stupid mistakes. I have hardly any real friends. I am even starting to lose faith in music. My musical taste does not even make me cool in many people's eyes. I am a nobody. A loser. I might as well end it now. Nobody will care. People have told me that I should march to the beat of my own drum and not worry about what others think but that is impossible!! ! I am already different from everybody, why should I separate myself completely from 'normal' people? I already feel alone as it is!! !! Why make things even worse!?!?!?! Sorry to ramble on but I had to get this out. Thanks.

you should be glad because you are different. The rest of them are robots with no thoughts of their own. You are here to interact with the planet instead of destroy it. When you realize you are "different" you are recollecting a past where you don[t belong here. You are superior and came here to teach the normal people better ways.

That sounds like a very difficult situation to deal with. It's really commendable that you manage to push on in such an unpleasant work environment--I'm not sure how well I would manage it. As for not separating yourself from "normal" people because you already feel alone: I find separating myself from them makes me feel less alone. I'm sure this varies from one individual to the next, though. It sounds to me like you could benefit from taking a metaphorical step back to breathe.

Also, I don't know you, but I somehow doubt that you are a worthless piece of sh*t.