Either way I'm trapped

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Well ever since I brought up the topic on how I've been adding to my depression with addictive food spending and lotto tickets (see this thread) I havent been able to stop. I'm close to being almost only $100 left in my bank account which means I may be only to pay credit card minimum monthly payments for only a couple of more months.

I'm at the end of my rope. My sister keeps filling out job applications for me to places that I am not in any mental state or condition to work for and my depression is worsening. My family will refuse to assist me as far as getting me counseling unless it gets really desperate again.

It could be Indiana in the wintertime but I doubt it. My depression has always been constant.

In March my family will be visiting my grandma who lives in the Dallas Texas area. There's always been talk about how I should find a job there and that there's probably more openings for a Medical Biller and Coder (got my degree and certification in October) as it's near impossible just to find voluntary work for that profession in Indianapolis, I wonder if I will have better luck in Texas.

There are downsides though:

First of all, I would have to live with my grandmother who has a tendency to lack a fully functioning internet. Last time I went down there with my dad he spent the whole time trying to get the internet to connect with my uncle's (who lives across the street) to no avail and what I could get is very very slow. I don't think I can survive without a connection for my laptop. It's just not feasible.

Second this is Texas and I worry that I may face greater stigma for my autism then I already do in Indiana. I'm also half-asian so it's much more challenging. I fear that I will be crapped on more for my social anxiety and smiling issues because the South has a tendency to really be strict with people (as being in Florida for a few months as shown me) as far as manners.

Last there's nothing to guarantee that I will get a job or wind up doing anything useful for my life if I were to stay there for say...a few months. I just hope I would be able to keep a car down there go I will go insane. But hey if I end up stuck at my grandmother's all day for several months with no internet I have the perfect environment to focus on writing a book (if only I had an actual idea for a book).

Well there you have it. Hell in general is bound to follow me wherever I go. What are your thoughts?

Well, Careerbuilder.com shows 131 hits for medical billing and coding in Dallas. You can apply for jobs before you go down there, and schedule the interviews as close together as you can. The time you spend at your Grandmother's waiting for responses to your applications should give you an idea of whether you can stand living there--if you hate it, just say none of the places would hire you and go back home.

If you do stay, you can get a wireless data plan so you don't have to rely on your grandmother's internet connection. You frequently write about your father being a source of stress in your life, so perhaps getting away from him would be an improvement for you.

I live in Dallas..... you should find some opportunities here.

Being half asian means very little, yes there are some stupid redneck racists here, but it's not as bad as all of that. Most of us are pretty progressive people. Being an Aspie is always going to be being an Aspie and the challanges remain the same regardless of geography.

Best of luck with your move if you make it.