Some weird problem with my brain

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Heya. I've posted on this website a bit before, I have a bit of a funny scenario to bring up.

See, ever since I was around... fourteen (19 atm) I've had music playing in my head. You know those times where you get earworms, and they stick in your head for a long time? Sometimes they're benign and they just bug you a little bit, sometimes they distract you or you hum along with them, or every now and then sing along with them.

Yeah, now imagine having an earworm that's insanely loud in your head, lasts all day from the moment you wake up to the moment you fall asleep, drowns out any attempt to actually take in anything you read and drowns out any thoughts you want to have. Only things in the back of your head, those tiny quite little thoughts, can go through without a problem. In essence, your brain is clogged with music.

That's my problem. It torments me during much of my day. It blocks out a lot of physical sensations. It seems to detach me from the rest of the world, and severs my thinking self from my physical self. I find myself doing things I don't even try to do, things that just happen automatically, and I don't notice them because the music is insanely loud.

Now I go to a psychologist, and even he's very confused. He frequently utilizes a method known as EMDR to reduce anxiety, eliminate stress and deal with phobias. But frequent usage of that (and many other anxiety related tools) have eliminated the possibility that it's anxiety.

I'm starting to think I'm going just a tad bit insane. More likely, however, I think there's something actually wrong with my brain.

I'm wondering, does anyone know what this is? I'm really confused about it.