Nikki82 wrote:
I am having a bad day and keep crying because even though i like who i am i admit i am jealous of people who find it easy to make friends, have relationships, get a job etc. I might have a learning disability and i don't understand what people are talking about they just use big words that i don't understand. I am too focused on being in front of someone that i don't hear the words coming out of their mouth because i am so anxious. I always craved a relationship or friends but i was so quiet in school and people picked on me or didn't like me so i hated going to school and i did quit school. I have had few relationships and one friend i had our friendship could probably never be again or the same because since we became more then friends and that didn't work out so it ruined everything. My ex still wants to talk to me like it is ok for him but i am not able to do that, i tried not talking to him and felt better then i decided to talk to him again and now i am hurting because i can't accept things have changed. I am taking meds and seeing specialists and not feeling better at all. i know there is help out there for me but i just want to feel better.
I'm glad to say that most of life is not like high school. In fact, at university I could always tell the freshmen from the sophmores because the freshmen acted like high schoolers. They would congregate in loud, large groups, dye their hair odd colors, wear strange clothing accessories and so on, but they would usually figure out university wasn't high school fairly quickly, and a lot of that behavior died down fairly quickly.
I found that people were generally a lot more accepting. They came from a wide variety of backgrounds and I think they generally knew how to prioritize better than high schoolers, and "cool" wasn't usually on the their list of priorities...or if it was, it meant an entirely different thing than it did in high school.
So I hope you don't think high school is an accurate representation of life as a whole. It is 5% of the average human life span spent with people with incompletely developed brains.
17 Feb 2011, 1:59 am
