animalcrackers wrote:
Okay, so I have a meeting with a social worker and the psychologist who assessed me to discuss the results of my diagnostic assessment late next week. The psychologist said she'd tell me the results beforehand, because I don't think I could handle finding out in a room with more than one other person--especially if I'm supposed to talk to people. I need time to let things sink in. (My regular counselling psychologist had to show me the testing room, introduce me to the psychologist who assessed me, and explain what I had to do so that I wouldn't panic when I was tested.)
Anyways, I slept badly last night because I actually had nightmares about the meeting. In my nightmares, there were tons of people in the room and I didn't know half of them. The psychologist didn't even tell me the results of her assessment--she just sat down and announced that I had to do more tests at a hospital (we were at a hospital, I don't know why). Then the people who were to give me more tests came in with their arms full of boxes (tests) and told me they were going to start. I then freaked out, got into an argument with the testing people because I refused to do the tests, ran away, and got lost in the hospital--which seemed to be the size of a small city.
I don't normally have nightmares about things, so when I do have them, it means I'm freaking out--and having nightmares then freaks me out more. I don't know how to calm down--I can't stop thinking about it..... Can anybody relate to this?
Oh, please do not worry so much about this. Now it's outside of your control and your counsellor just needs to do his/her job. I cannot know what you're being assessed for (Autistic spectrum disorder?) but a label really changes nothing! Please remember that; I know it's easy for me to say, but really a diagnostic label, is simply a label with an associated number for NHS purposes. Remember that you are in charge of your care! Not someone else and you have the control. Of course you're nervous - who wouldn't be? But so sorry it's effected your sleep even.....soon enough you'll know and will not have to fret.
Did you know that problems, or queries, can be very very tough....but the answers to them are often deceptively easy. Remember that. Then make yourself some tea, listen to your favourite music, and that you, as a person, have not changed at all.
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The ones who say “You can’t” and “You won’t” are probably the ones scared that you will. - Unknown
20 Mar 2011, 10:44 am
