I'm going to kill myself very soon. I cant deal with things.

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johnnydangerous
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24 Mar 2011, 9:07 pm

Things are not going to get better. I'm handsome, have a nice job and a good personality. But women want nothing to do with me. Women love to "test" men, over and over. I just don't understand this mentality.

When I meet someone new, I don't say to myself "lets see what I can get with, with this girl. Lets see how far I can push her before she stands up for herself" but apparently women love doing this. I can no longer cope with the games.

I dont want to argue about it. I just want the pain to stop and I AM GOING TO KILL MYSELF VERY SOON unless a miracle happens. I'm lonely. I don't want to die but there is no other option at this point.

All I ever wanted was to get married and for a woman to love me. I dont know why but God has just said "no" to this request. I dont understand, because I'm a good man. Mabye God wants me to die. I think its time.



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24 Mar 2011, 9:11 pm

Sorry to hear that you are about to do that, don't know what I should say.



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24 Mar 2011, 9:12 pm

If you're in the US call one of these numbers:

1-800-SUICIDE/1-800-784-2433 or 1-800-273-TALK/1-800-273-8255

Suicide's not worth it, and being suicidal is often an acute condition that passes. You may want to die today, but you might not want to die tomorrow.



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24 Mar 2011, 9:13 pm

Dude, I`m in the same boat as you. Try aspie women.



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24 Mar 2011, 9:14 pm

Don't do something so rash.

I understand you're lonely. I honestly don't want to get married (watching my parents puts me off ever getting married), but a part of me is frustrated that I just don't attract people.

I find other ways to fulfill myself.



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24 Mar 2011, 9:19 pm

Vent, rage, scream, cry... but PLEASE do NOT do something so rash and permanent!

Please reach out to your local suicide hotline... let them help you. Please.



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24 Mar 2011, 9:27 pm

draelynn wrote:
Vent, rage, scream, cry... but PLEASE do NOT do something so rash and permanent!

Please reach out to your local suicide hotline... let them help you. Please.


permanent pain is better? Because thats what my life will be if I continue. THERE IS NO HOPE OF THINGS GETTING BETTER. I AM NOT GOING TO GET PEOPLE TO MAGICALLY LIKE ME!

death is permanent, yes, but at least there is no more pain.



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24 Mar 2011, 9:34 pm

Many many people here have been where you are now. They know how much it hurts. But they also now know they can find ways to make it better.

Please - call someone now. You are overwhelmed right now... please... call someone.



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24 Mar 2011, 9:38 pm

draelynn wrote:
Many many people here have been where you are now. They know how much it hurts. But they also now know they can find ways to make it better.

Please - call someone now. You are overwhelmed right now... please... call someone.


THERE IS NOONE TO CALL!! !! !! !! !! !! THERE IS NOTHING BUT PAIN AHEAD!! !! !! !! !! !! !! !

I cant control life but I CAN CONTROL my death!

NOONE WILL HELP I WANT THE PAIN TO STOP NOW!! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!



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24 Mar 2011, 9:41 pm

You're handsome, have a nice job, and a good personality: three good reasons not to kill yourself. If I knew you, I'd bet the farm I could find more.

I'm going to give you a link. I think it's some of the most helpful advice you'll find:

If you're thinking about suicide...read this first


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24 Mar 2011, 9:42 pm

johnnydangerous wrote:
draelynn wrote:
Vent, rage, scream, cry... but PLEASE do NOT do something so rash and permanent!

Please reach out to your local suicide hotline... let them help you. Please.


permanent pain is better? Because thats what my life will be if I continue. THERE IS NO HOPE OF THINGS GETTING BETTER. I AM NOT GOING TO GET PEOPLE TO MAGICALLY LIKE ME!

death is permanent, yes, but at least there is no more pain.


When your choice is pain vs nothing, pain is always better.

I don't mean to be rude or crush your beliefs, but God did not say no to your request, and he does not want you to die; and that's because he isn't real. The sooner you accept that, the better. All we can do is enjoy the time we have here, and make the absolute most of it. There is no reason to off yourself, as long as you can still feel.

I imagine that when you die it is just like before you were born. You might say "well, that's not so bad." But it really is. You will die eventually, why rush it? Enjoy what you can.

Look, things will get better for you. Reach out to someone and get help. You'll be thanking me some time from now. I guarantee it.



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24 Mar 2011, 9:42 pm

While I realize that you are very upset, PLEASE don't kill yourself over this. It is not worth it. More likely than not you WILL find someone that you connect with. Please call a suicide hotline or your shrink or your mom or someone.


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24 Mar 2011, 9:59 pm

johnnydangerous wrote:
draelynn wrote:
Many many people here have been where you are now. They know how much it hurts. But they also now know they can find ways to make it better.

Please - call someone now. You are overwhelmed right now... please... call someone.


THERE IS NOONE TO CALL!! !! !! !! !! !! THERE IS NOTHING BUT PAIN AHEAD!! !! !! !! !! !! !! !

I cant control life but I CAN CONTROL my death!

NOONE WILL HELP I WANT THE PAIN TO STOP NOW!! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!


Don't do this. You don't have to. You can get through this. Call one of the numbers posted above. Just call.

By the way, I do believe in God and I'm praying for you. Hang in there.



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24 Mar 2011, 10:22 pm

This and this are all I ever want to do to people who consider suicide. Seriously- it's a selfish, cowardly way out of dealing with the real problem.


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24 Mar 2011, 10:22 pm

Look at all the people here on WP who are willing to support you and lend an ear. You are not alone. This is a very difficult time, but even though it doesn't seem that way now, it will pass. Just focus on getting through the day, one day at a time. There is a light at the end of the tunnel.



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24 Mar 2011, 10:29 pm

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