Kind of positive...but negative

Post Reply New Topic

So I am almost graduated from High School...
I feel like I can do whatever with a diploma...but I am in kind of a dilemma...
Should I move away from my town immediately and disconnect from everyone friends and family and change my name.
OR should I stay in my town for another two years of pain with the same identity and finish college?

I think I am just going to move away never going on the internet or anything else that will prove my existence...Already deleted facebook...I have no phone already...
But I know I should finish two years at a community college...Because I suck at working you know?

Why do you feel this way? Like giving up, leaving everything behind? Why do you want to leave no trace of your existence?

good idea i will probably do the same when i graduate but im still a freshman

I had a chance to do this at one point in my life. I didn't take the opportunity. While I justify my choice through the love I have for my children and my husband because I can't imagine life without them now, I do wish I had taken the chance to form a completely new identity with a new name in a new place.

Don't be stupid about it. Have a plan. But go for it.

Isn't this just walking away from all your problems? Isn't that like ignoring everything instead of dealing with it and finding a solution? You should have a very good reason to walk away then I think. Don't just go away because it's easier.

Because disconnecting is who I am.
I always disconnect, and I want to do the big disconnect and reinvent myself.
So frustrated about a lot of things...
Only 6 more weeks or so and I graduate...but I can't drive or nothing and I have no job...and if I get a job I wont be able to graduate on time.
ugggg

As Buckaroo Bonsai said "No matter where you go, there you are."

You can disconnect and cut yourself off from all the people and places of your past except for one person. Yourself.

You will still be the same person and all the mistakes you made in the town you grew up in will will be the same sort of mistakes you will make in some new place. But facing those mistakes, you stand a chance of working through them and growing into a more effective person. Disconnecting from the people you know now will not change how you deal with people. It will only change the names of the people you deal with, but you will still deal with them in the same way unless you change the under lying problem of how you deal with people. And if you can do that, there is really no need to disconnect.

You should do what's right, not just what's easy. Just think about it, it's still your choice, but I think it's cowardly to refuse to face your problems. Don't intent to offend you, but this is how I see the world.