Maybe this is not the best title......but its the best I could think of for this post. Anyways a few months ago a bit before I found out for sure about the aspergers. I was very frusterated and desprate to find out what was wrong with me and get help for it......so that is what I tried to do by going to counseling. But as it turns out I am only wasting the counselers time and am not getting anything out of it. Not to mention I am not willing to try anti-depressants agian, just the thought makes me sick because of the horrible experiance I already had on anti-depressants. Hopefully I get approved for SSI.....if not well I guess I'll figure out another way to have enough income to live on. But one thing is for certain I do not want to have to depend on anything from my mom. I am fed up with her under the surface crap and how she always gives into her boyfriends bs. But because I have not found a way to move out yet I am stuck there and have to depend on her for rides to get to college. So I guess I will quit the conseling no need to be wasting two peoples time, wait it out to find out if I will get the SSI or not, and as soon as I find that out I'll decide what to do...and it will not involve indefinatly staying at my moms place because I am done. I don't need her being a huge big mouth about the fact I have aspergers and acting like its some sort of accomplishment.
K kinda getting stuck on issues with my mom, but thats not really the point of this......thats part of it. But really I am just getting fed up with going to useless therapy, I am not totally happy about the aspergers thing so I have yet to attempt going to any sort of support group. I am only facing the facts though I will never be fit for this society as it is now, so I should quit pretending its what I want. It's what I want when I feel weak, when that self concious emotional side comes out. Otherwise I just feel like I want out and should get to it.
28 Mar 2011, 9:17 pm
