i'm afraid to post here....fml

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the last time i tried to post about how my mother let me be abused, i got told i should love my parents, then people argued and now i just don't want to post at all

i tried to talk to my parents again but they basically told me they don't want to hear. i don't know who to talk to if i can't talk to you.

I apologise for the other thread.

Perhaps you could write down what problems you have with them?
I find it difficult to say what I mean when i'm upset with someone.

i can't think straight right now. i hurt so much. i'll post later maybe when my mind is working better.

i tried to talk to my mum but she won't hear. i could show her photos but she won't hear. how can you not care? why doesn't she care?

I'm really messed up, maybe my mind will make sense later.

Hi, I just wanted to say I'd love to lend an ear. I was abused too and a few people let it happen. Thankfully my mum and I made it up before she died (I have no father) but life can be so isolating when no-one wants to listen, or don't believe you. I don't tell anybody about it, it's just easier for me, but if you want to chat, feel free.
Sam

i get all these feelings and i can't let them out. i feel so angry i'm afraid i'll hurt someone but it feels as if everyone is able to hurt me and i can't say anything. i'm so tired of being hurt and not being able to say anything.

i love my cat. if i hurt someone i'd hurt her so i won't. but i feel so powerless, and just so so tired of it. that's not even clear is it. there's just so much and i'm not thinking well.

having no control over situations is terrifying.
can you think of things you do have control over and then try on making those things better?
sometimes little steps help.

i feel like i control everything but i can't do anything. i want to hurt the people who hurt me but i don't because that would hurt my cat.

how can you not care that your child was abused? i don't understand that. i tried to talk to my mum. she doesn't want to know but she'll be my best friend if i want to talk about ordinary things like lasagne recipes or imaginary careers that i'm never going to have. i just don't understand how she can't care but she doesn't so i need to understand that and i don't.

have you told the police about the abuse?
she would have no choice but to deal with it then.

You could perhaps try counselling. For me, WrongPlanet could only do so much, the people here are great but I found that staring at a screen whilst bringing up all those emotions was frustrating and overwhelming. Please note I'm not trying to discourage you from posting, just suggesting a possible outlet. (Also I don't receive counselling myself but as I don't know you it is my 'default' suggestion).

That would drive me mad, I couldn't talk about normal things with her and yet her not acknowledge the abuse. I would feel so resentful, I would find it hard to see her - from my point of view. We're all different and handle things in different ways and that I would find hard. Perhaps she feels so bad and guilty for letting it happen that she doesn't want to talk about it, she may find it too upsetting and it may threaten the relationship she has with you. I'm not making excuses for her, just thinking why she's ignoring the issue.

i know you mean well and you didn't mean what you said last time. but this is the wrong thing to say, it's not helping. it's not that simple. and i know you don't understand why and i'm just so so tired. sorry. maybe i'll be clearer when things work better in my head, but not right now.

I will presume you're referring to me.

I'm not sure what answer you want
- i can only give you the advice on what i've found worked for me in the past.

I also agree with missymisfit - it's probably a lot easier for her to ignore the bad parts. which isn't fair, but people are confusing creatures.

Wuffles, you have my sympathy for what it's worth. It sounds like a horrible situation to be in.

I haven't read the other thread, so I'm not 100% sure what the history is. Clearly you are upset. You have my sympathy.

To draw a parallel, when alcoholics are confronted they often deny having a problem (or so I'm lead to believe). From what you've said here, it sounds like your mom might be in denial of the whole situation.

I got a lot out of my therapy sessions. You might benefit from seeing a professional.

I'm sorry you were attacked in here and I'm even more sorry that I didn't see your thread. Please ask one of us for help when something like this happens.

Parental abuse is a very serious thing and I still have a very hard time believing how many people make little of it or even blame the victim.

Do you live with your mother? It would help a lot with healing if she would acknowledge your situation and take responsibility, but you can't make her do it. Have you tried counselling? Can you not see her for a while and try to come to terms with what happened and find some balance on your own or with professional help?

If she refuses to help and you keep trying to get her involved, you're only giving her more power to continue abusing you . It will be a lot harder to overcome your past without her help but you have to try it, you don't deserve to feel so miserable because of what others did to you. You wouldn't believe how many people here went through the same thing, you're not alone.