27 years old, finished with my life

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I think I've done more than enough in my life to call it quits. Went to school, went to college, had a few jobs, been to Disney World, saw all 6 seasons of Lost, and read the whole Harry Potter book series. I am so done with my life and ready to go. People say "what about getting married and having kids?" I say "screw it". I'm not worried that it will never happen. I just know that I wouldn't be happy and I would be spreading my boredom, meltdowns, and misery on other people who don't deserve it. Besides, I've seen enough television (both fictional and reality) and movies to know what it's really gonna be like (plus there's my parents) and the more I see it, the more I don't want to be a part of it. And looking back on my employment past I really don't want to work anymore. I'm sick of that paranoid feeling that I will just be harassed in the workplace for being quiet and reserved and that managers might get on me when I have meltdowns and the like. I've done enough work to know how much it sucks and the money is not worth it. Why repeat a cycle in the workplace that will never cease? What's the difference if I'm living on the streets versus living under a roof?

I may be $1500 in debt from wasteful habits (w/ only $90 left in my bank account) but I couldn't give a flying goobers!

As for seeing other countries and the like, Youtube videos have provided such experiences for me. So I've pretty much have done everything in this life someone in my position could experience and appreciate. I don't appreciate being a bitter senile old person, especially when I already feel that way right now. I'm so bored, so tired, so depressed and I want all the stupid memories in my head of people screaming at me to go away. Seriously, why couldn't the world end on Saturday like it was supposed to? I'm a bit bummed about that.

So what's next on the agenda then? Surely there must be something you haven't done that you've always wanted to do. You could write a book, or take a big steaming dump on the counter at McDonalds...oh man, life is full of possibilities, especially when you don't give a flying goober. There are enough people who give 90% too much of a flying goober, and you, my dear Watson, are ahead of the curve. Now, go out there and kick some ass!

I don't mean to rant some more but so much more needs to be said:

I just cannot believe that I get through all of regular grade school (w/o flunking a single grade), graduated from a university, worked at WDW, got a certification in something...all of this while being autistic and yet the outside world could not give a flying s**t (or goober) because I don't have social skills?! f**k this! Seriously. I'm more ready than ever to die now. With all the people crap I had to endure for these 27 years, all of these accomplishments still put me at the bottom rung of society because I'm too quiet and I have a tendency to piss people off. I'm just really really pissed off. I worked hard to get rewarded not get treated like scum. Seriously if I could do high school all over again I would've just behaved unruly, skip classes, do detentions, fool around with some guys, smoke, and do everything bad and not care for the rules because guess what? No one f*****g cared that I never got a single tardy or detention. No one f*****g cared that I actually graduated. No one f*****g cared about all the work I put into theater and choir (especially when it was not a class obligation). Don't get me started about college. I should have never gone. I went to a low level university as it was and being on the crew of a high definition film and the star of a sketch comedy show means nothing to other people (especially if you knew what kind of crap I had to endure in both projects). What a waste of my time and life that turned out to be. At least I got to experience getting plastered and all of that. I didn't appreciate my then best friend fuck-ing me over after all the crap I dealt with being her friend.

And how many autistic people can say they actually survived a whole semester doing the WDW college program? I mean this is the place where they would literally kick your ass if you're not smiling enough infront of the managers and guests.

Such is my life: enduring crap without a single damn reward for it.
Now you see why it sucks so much.

Id suggest actually taking that trip to another country...videos/reading really is no substitute.

I know money issues and such.. im just saying its one thing you should experience.

If you don't care anymore, the list of antics you could get into is endless...

The only thing am going to say on the subject are theres three magical & powerful words:

Like attracts like.

lol i became a gambler and a shoplifter after i started feeling like you did and i have to say despite what others think it has given me a lot of confidence. go and steal a candybar or a tv. go to vegas. screw a hooker. don't be shy at this point you have nothing to lose and it sounds like you need to do something.

I feel the same way.

I hate life, everything about it, other than my relationship with my family. The only thing I haven't achieved that I want to is sex with a woman my type...but it's not a requirement and I can live without it as I'm not expecting it to ever happen.

It's kind of funny, really, because if I accomplished it, I truly would have nothing left that I wanted to do.

No job goals (also don't want to be harassed by managers and co-workers), don't want to get married or have a family, kind of wish I'd go to sleep one night and not wake up. Or there'd be some twist ending to my life like that movie The Game with Michael Douglas where it turns out all the sh1t he was going through was just a game.

Well I am also 27 and I do feel very similar.

After living out on my own with some help for several years I've had to move back to my parents home. It's a nightmare especially because I enjoy smoking weed to calm me down and I have to sneak around with it like I'm some high school kid for fear of being kicked out. I have a long sob story of divorce, drugs, strippers, and booze but I'd be typing all night.

Wanting and or not caring about dying empowers a person and makes them somewhat dangerous. You can sit around and wait to die which might take a while. Or get up off your ass live life however you want to as long as it isn't hurting someone else. I have about 25,000 in debt as well, but I do enjoy myself more than most people because I do the things they fear to do.

yeah well im 29 and i basically had a meltdown about 2 weeks ago, coming to terms/realizations about my past, my current situation, and my future. and no one except my mother and sister are there for me anyways. and i as well have racked up debt, and still have no career in gear, and no relationships platonic or romantic, and im barely hanging on financially to be able to support myself independently im living my life in silence with very few outlets. so i understand your pain, frustration, anger, and wanting to give up.

I get you, You have my sympathy, I know exactly where you are coming from, I've endured so much unbearable pain and suffering too, I'm really drained and exhausted at the short span of 22 years, Asperger isn't fair, not gonna lie, and it doesn't help either the fact our struggles are so damn invisible, people don't really know all the hard work you just put in to survive, to keep going on day through day. I can work my A** off and still get beaten down and abused. My work experience is lousy. I'm always the one with the blame without even knowing what exactly were my flaws TBH i'm really scared and i'm worried I won't make it to 27 or 30 years. Life is such a b**

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