02 May 2011, 7:15 pm
i know i have vented several times on here about my unknown relationship with my friend Cheyenne and i recently, after a lot of studying, found out i have developed an Affectional Bond with her
Affectional Bonds have this criteria:
Affectional bonds are persistent rather than transitory.
Affectional bonds are centered on a specific individual.
The relationship involved in an affectional bond has strong emotional significance.
The individual seeks contact and proximity with the person he or she has an affectional bond to.
Involuntary separation from the individual leads to distress.
and all these i have for her, but the last one is usually what i vent about on WP. she hasnt talked to me in over a month now because of a mistake i made after 3 weeks of depression and paranoia and because this involuntary separation i have been spiraling down into deeper and deeper depression even, for the first time in years, considering suicide to take the pain of her absence in my life away. i know she still loves me and i love her and she said she just needs time and that she will forgive me but it seems like everyday i feel her slipping away further and its really scaring me because she was the first person in my life i ever bonded to in this way, thats why it took so long for me to find out what the feelings were because they were new and foreign to me, and i dont know what i would do if she ever left my life 
