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zen_mistress
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20 Jun 2011, 3:54 am

Quote:
"Tears Dry On Their Own" (Amy Winehouse)

All I can ever be to you,
Is a darkness that we knew,
And this regret I've got accustomed to,
Once it was so right,
When we were at our high,
Waiting for you in the hotel at night,
I knew I hadn't met my match,
But every moment we could snatch,
I don't know why I got so attached,
It's my responsibility,
And you don't owe nothing to me,
But to walk away I have no capacity

He walks away,
The sun goes down,
He takes the day but I'm grown,
And there's no way, in this blue shape,
My tears dry on their own,

I don't understand,
Why do I stress A man,
When there's so many bigger things at hand,
We could a never had it all,
We had to hit a wall,
So this is inevitable withdrawal,
Even if I stop wanting you,
A Perspective pushes true,
I'll be some next man's other woman soon,

I shouldn't play myself again,
I should just be my own best friend,
Not f**k myself in the head with stupid men,

So we are history,
YOUR shadow covers me
The sky above,
A blaze only that lovers see

I wish I could say no regrets,
And no emotional debts,
Cause as we kiss goodbye the sun sets
So we are history,
The shadow covers me,
The sky above a blaze that only lovers see,

He walks away,
The sun goes down,
He takes the day but I'm grown,
And in no way,
In my deep shape
My tears dry



I will be taking a break from this board for a while, as you can see I have many issues, the above just being one.

I am trying to make a life for myself as a single person in their 30s and it is not easy, but I feel that here I am just writing angry posts and going into threads and getting in fights with people.

I dont want to be "that angry woman". And I see things on the board that really upset me sometimes and am not really in the frame of mind to cope with it.

I might return in a few months. Thanks you all for entertaining me.

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20 Jun 2011, 11:44 am

Good luck, Zen, I do hope you come to a place of feeling more content and at peace.
I have some understanding of this sort of situation and the feelings involved.
I love the picture you posted, it is very beautiful and the lyrics resonate with me also.
((hug))



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20 Jun 2011, 12:46 pm

Hey Zen,

Always have enjoyed your posts, and you've never come off as angry to me. Good luck getting things sorted out!

--David



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20 Jun 2011, 3:58 pm

Thank you, you two.

Heckeler you have been very kind to me. I hope the next few months are really good ones for you. (((((((hug))))))))

Graelwyn, yes I was listening to that song last night, and I realised how much the lyrics applied to my situation. I hope we both manage to move forwards with our lives, I know I am hoping to repair the parts of myself that really need my care and attention.

Yes I like the fact that the picture contains a lot of things that I like, such as fairies, animals, the forest and lake, butterflies, and waterlilies.

Anyway I am logging out now. Take care....

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20 Jun 2011, 4:03 pm

D:

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20 Jun 2011, 4:07 pm

^^ I wish you a very lovely rest, zenmistress.


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20 Jun 2011, 4:32 pm

Hey Zen, have a good break. Hope you feel better. :)


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20 Jun 2011, 4:36 pm

So Long, farewell, Auf Wiedersehen, Good-bye!


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20 Jun 2011, 4:45 pm

come back soon, zen. (:



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20 Jun 2011, 4:55 pm

Thanks, (((((((((((tomasu, KyleTheGhost, OneStepBeyond, Moog, emlion))))))) you are all too kind... : )


I was browsing the internet and I found an interesting website for women with eating disorders, if anyone is looking to read anything about the topic, it has stories from women of different ages. I thought perhaps someone else might find it interesting, like I did.

http://thebodyimageproject.blogspot.com/

anyway I will be logging out again. Take care all and have a good summer/winter.... : )

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20 Jun 2011, 5:26 pm

):i hate goodbyes!



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20 Jun 2011, 5:34 pm

Sorry to hear that - I will miss you - please come back when you're ready...



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20 Jun 2011, 5:47 pm

Have a good break and take care, look forward to seeing you back when you're ready :)

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21 Jun 2011, 12:36 am

Thanks guys, and take care

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