I don't get it.

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Why can't I just forget about it all? I was so close to telling my family to leave me alone. But then I gave in, I ended up hanging out with the wrong people so I freaked out and came back home. I just don't understand why I cannot let it go and get on with my life........I mean I have spent so long always thinking of others first but I still get shunned and ignored, so i don't see why I bother. I want everyone to have a good time but it just screws me over, I really don't get it. I just want to be free to live my life. Anyone have any advice? I don't like the standards society has set up and I can't live up to them.

I think it is difficult to make, and feel, positive progression. I read that it is more likely to feel improvement when attempting many things. Like trying to eat healthier, get more exercise, become involved in social activities, try some volunteering, learn a new skill, meditate. If all these were on an agenda, when it feels like there is no progress in one area, perhaps a positive can be seen in another area. Whereas if a person only had one goal, failure would perhaps feel more absolute.

Everyone has different goals though, which I believe they are best to set for themselves. I know one person who used to go and sit in a public park, and try to ask of himself: 'What is it that I really want to do?' That helped him, but it would not help me because I do not like public parks very much. Too busy.

You need to be more selfish in the sense of prioritizing your own thoughts and actions before you think of others, unless it is something that will cause harm.
It sounds like you're a people pleasing type.
You need not to change your behavior but the way you distribute it amongst yourself and friends.
You are basically spoiling people with your presence, and the more you work for it and the more you give of yourself the less they will value you.
But it also depends on who you choose as "friends", some friends will balance this out by doing things for you as much as you do things for them. Others don't take the things you do and say in to account and take everything for granted. They don't know it is something you do and waste energy on, they just think "It's just the way you are"
and it doesn't help it they lack empathy.

So focus on yourself more and do s**t you want to do and not what others suggest.
It is only natural for a caring person to continue caring and wasting cognitive energy on others and ignoring her/himself making one very tired and confused.
It's like a devoted mother. Even tho the mother does everything for her child the kid loses appreciation for all the work and shuns her and all the work she puts in to the kids wellbeing.

Be your own person simply, instead of giving yourself to everyone let them figure you out and chase after you.

Don't worry, just do things that make you happy even if you have to step on a couple of toes. People aren't made of glass, they'll be grumpy but they won't break.
And if someones view conflicts with yours and that it turn conflicts with your happiness and the way you want to live your life then that person has to be educated about your preferences in life and distance him/herself from you if they do not agree.

It is life.

Yeah that all makes sense......I think another issue is I tend to feel lonely a lot so sometimes I have a hard time not showering anyone I meet and like with niceities so they don't shun me before they get to know me. But yeah that is probably not the greatest approach because later down the road when I feel taken advantage of and have worn myself out I still fill lonely. So good advice, I am still just trying to figure out how to stop that habit....and how to quit always worrying about everyone else.

To quote Morpheus. "I know exactly what you mean".

It's the surge of happiness, the transition of complete loneliness to contact with life.
It's like a puppy at the pound charging the cage door when someone who is able to display and share affection comes along. It's sometimes uncontrollable and in my opinion should never require a lid. It is the most purest and wonderful reaction but can be interpreted differently by others. Like desperation, and that leads the person to think it will convert into cling-iness. And for people who hardly know you this swift (emotional) transition is to much and they choose to push you away. Or act like it's not there ignoring it but not really ready for it. This has also much to do with love. The exchange of yourself with others.

I must agree that it is a approach of "to much", but it is also who you are. It can not be denied. You don't fake the happiness you greet people with but to be exact over-ex saturate it because of the happiness of contact.

The way you deal with this is to accept that a large proportion of life will be loneliness, you and your brain and then the other part of closeness and contact, intimacy and interaction. It is something you need to ease in to and not jump in to straight away because it will warp the very fabric of what makes you you and all the things you do and in the way you present yourself.

If you go from a full of joy and care showering person to "the cool guy" silent and introvert in a interactive society you will just feel bad in the end and lose yourself because of the behavioral and emotional leap.
The only way is to learn how to distribute yourself amongst yourself and others.
I always go 50/50 and then depending on the person in question reserve my energy or deem him/her worthy of more, and keep track of how much I am given in return.
This sounds very forced and controlled yes? But it's not, it is just a way of sensing the output of energy that you posses in all that you are.
Moderation is often the key.

Just stay cool and see how much you're willing to throw in to the pot each day.

Oh I remember those same thoughts. I can't think of anything useful right now as my mind is mush, but if I do I will post. I don't have those thoughts now.