these people!

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I'm feeling the s**t building up and ready to hit the fan any minute now. My aunt just called me in the middle of the night to tell me she's downstairs as if it had anything to do with me. She and her idiot husband have driven down to visit for a birthday party tomorrow. It's my uncle's birthday tomorrow. so what?
These people in my family treat me as less than, because I'm going to be 30 soon but still live at home and am unemployed. The fact that I could make it through a whole day is big enough of an accomplishment for myself, thank you very much. Every day is a miracle for me.
I think she sensed in my voice that I was bothered. I don't like surprises. I find it to be a terrible inconvenience not knowing what to do and say to this woman, that I am related to. Sitting in my room expecting me to talk to her. "Why is she in here!?" I had to all but run out and drive around in circles and hang out with someone I can't stand.
Why do I have to put up with this!? I don't even feel safe in my own home! I don't bother anybody, I just want to get on with my life and figure out what's going on with me! It took me a whole month to recover from her intrusion and the depression to feel safe again in my home. This is my life.
I can't wait for my evaluation. I can't wait for therapy and support for learning some kind of coping skills to deal with people and this life. Being uncomfortable is my most natural disposition for the last three months. I'm very glad to be off my medication. I finally feel myself and I'm proud of myself for making it this far. I'm a miracle to be alive.

NTs consider it polite to do things such as greet others and reach out to them socially, especially when visiting family. From her perspective, it would have been rude not to say hello as most people would have perceived this as being ignored or excluded.

This is one thing you could have done which would have been more socially acceptable.

"Oh hi aunt (whatever her name is). I didn't know you were coming, no one told me, I'll be right down."

(You go downstairs)

Again you say hello to she and her husband and proceed to make some minor small talk. You could say...

"So how was the trip?"
"So what's new?"
"So how have you been?"

And they will usually proceed to ask a similar question in return or expect you to offer that information after they are done replying to you.

After this conversation goes on for a few minutes you can say something like "Well I'm going to get to bed," or "I'm going to head back upstairs but I'll see you in the morning" and then you both can proceed to say your good nights.

Yea I don't understand why NTs feel the need to do and say such trivial things. It's like if someone ISNT talking or attending to them they can't stand being alone with their thoughts. Just gotta blabbering about something useless that everyone already knew or ask a silly question they could've answered themselves if they just thought about it for two damn seconds. They don't hear from me for an hour or two, and they just gotta shout "heeey are you here????" and I'm like "yup why?" "just checking".

Sometimes I wonder if it's really ME that's the crazy one. AM I RIGHT lol

AtticusKane:
You said it right. they can’t stand being alone with their thoughts. I personally don’t understand how NTs are able to survive in this world without constantly having to medicate themselves or intoxicate themselves consistently. Because most moral failures exhibited by NTs who are able to twist their stories or truth to fit their stories, I would not be able to live with myself by constantly having to lie to myself of the truth of what actually happened. It must be quite sad to exist in half-truth or reality blinded by the truth all the time.
So I almost look at their social-rules as ways to hide their true identity because if they have known the truth of how they really are as human beings, it must be pretty hurtful for them. so instead of facing the truth of themselves, they use these social cliques to hide the truth and be able to constantly distract their thoughts.
Because if they truly sat down and analysed their deeds in social and philosophical truest sense, they would understand their mistakes and it would put them in even bigger jeopardy and pain.