PixieXW wrote:
My mum was really angry at me last night, really shouting at me and I was scared of her. She got me really upset and I ended up staying up to tidy my room because she was shouting about that. She said she was sorry this morning and she is ill which always makes her in a bad mood but I was already really upset and worried because I'd failed my chemistry test and not got a part in the fourth play I've had to audition for I'm also feeling really bad because I've gained a really stupid special interest in the character I've played in my drama folio piece. I'd thought it would disappear after a few days but it hasn't and actually I'm wondering if that is what made me so upset. I feel a bit scared because one of my new friends were speaking about aspergers yesterday and I was really scared they work it out! I also wonder if I over reacted to my mum last night because my character was abused as a child. I even started to scratch my left arm like she does to get rid of frustration.
My mum says she doesn't feel I appreciate what she does for me! I do and I don't understand why she thinks this what am I supposed to do? Sorry that was quite a long rant for something so small!
Probably wasn't that small from your point of view. I wouldn't worry too much about your mother. Mother's love to guilt trip their children, especially when they get older and "Empty Nest Syndrome" starts setting in. Sorry to hear about your test and your audition. I wish I could give you some useful advice here, but if I were in that situation I would probably take it personally to an unhealthy degree. I also come from abusive parents and siblings as well as a history of childhood bullying so hyper-vigilance comes with the territory.
And if scratching yourself calms you down, it's probably not a big deal unless you're drawing blood.
04 Oct 2012, 1:48 am
