I am finally moving on

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Eighth grade was a tough year. You can read my past posts for that. Anyway, the girl I had (key word, HAD) a crush on is moving back to NY in 10-ish days. Back when I heard that she was moving, I was devastated. Now, I realize that this could have been the best thing that's happened to me. Over the summer, she did not make as much of an effort to contact me as much as I did with her. She would "like" my posts on Facebook, but I would send her messages sometimes and even a phone-call. I'm starting to miss her less and less. As for my other friend, now I realize that I'm not so fond of her anymore. I've been reconnecting with my old best friend (also the best thing that happened). I let my other two friends go and I'm proud of that. I'm prepared for a fresh start at my new school. I'm glad I'm done with this year. My "grief" affected how I acted during my graduation year (I acted pretty bitchy).

Some time back, maybe a week or two ago, I emailed the NY girl asking what she had really felt during the year. She emailed back saying "I'm not ignoring you. You will get an answer". Since then, I haven't talked to her. I haven't spoken to her since before fourth of July (when I got a head injury) and I haven't seen her since the Graduation party (June 18th). I decided to stop waiting for her reply. I haven't seen either of them since then. They've become my past. Before, that was my biggest fear. Now, that is my greatest joy.

I'm happy for you that you're getting a fresh start with your old friends. Best of luck to you in the coming year! Hope it's a great one!

My only question is why I feel like this. I've been lingering for the past year and I'm letting go NOW? What took me so long?

Anyone?

Chemicals.

Not being able to see them/talk with them has dumped the chemicals that were generating the emotions. The addictive emotions are gone and it's freeing not to always be on that rollercoaster any more - now that your mind is clear.

IMO

I guess so. But I feel like I still have a question I can't verbalize.