Last week me and my girlfriend of 4 years broke it off. This doesn't bother me as much because of the abuse she handed me and the fact that I usually perceive things logically. Now, back at my home, I am watching my grandma die of cancer and alcoholism as my grandfather slowly drops into the depths of dementia. I have been so low functioning the only things I have are my special interests. Going to work seems impossible and I've been making bad decisions. I.E. Starting smoking again, spending too much money, acting impulsively, etc. All of our accounts in the house are in the negatives as I have to use the money I got from selling my childhood objects to keep my grandma from going into delirium tremens. I've no money till the first and little food. Not even enough money for college application which would solve everything.
I'm positive but it's really hard. Now without my girlfriend no one can reassure me but myself.