"Friends"? Yeah right, I give up.

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Friends? Yeah....I give up. It's just too hard!

I don't even HAVE anymore friends....just a few aquaintances and that's it.

I've tried. I find people who share intrests with me and I'm nice, I listen, I hang out with them, I laugh with them, cry with them, give them presents around the holidays and their b-days, I try not to blow them off, I try to keep my temper in check, I try to watch what I say and then something ALWAYS happens.

I've moved recently. I'm at a new school now and....no one and I do mean NO ONE shares the same intrests as I do. I try to introduce them to new things and tell them about stuff that I like and they all say it's stupid or that they will but they never do.

....I hate people.

I hate interacting with people. I hate being around people. I hate listening to people. I hate trying to be friends with people when it all just blows up in my face!

EVERY! DAMN! TIME!

I'm so sick of it!

I'm sick of putting everything into a relationship and never getting anything back! I'm sick of introducing myself to people and having them blow me off! I'M SICK OF HOW MY "BEST FRIEND" NEVER LISTENS TO ME ANYMORE AND NEVER WANTS TO DO ANYTHING WITH ME!

I'm so sick and tired!

I just want to be left alone now! But am I going to be? NO OF COURSE NOT! I'm going to have adults; my parents, my teachers, my therapist, all bugging me about interacting with people and being social!

No.

Just...just no.

f**k off and leave me alone.

I don't want to be pushed together with other kids anymore. I don't want to have pointless conversations anymore. I don't want to be gawked at when I say something.

I just want to be left alone. I want to curl up and read a book. I want to sit around and play a video game. I want to bob my head to some music. I want to go on my computer and do stuff on it.

I don't want to be social.

I don't want friends.

I just want to be left alone.

So I give up.

And I wish that the adults in my life would as well.

I've always thought anime and manga were kick ass interests. >.> So... i'd probably fail at your school too.

Things might get flexible in the future if this is highschool we're talking about, good enough grades and you can go to a good college and maybe move to a place where more people share your interests and your sense of fun.

I can completely relate to how you feel. Sometimes I feel as though it is better just to not socialise altogether to avoid conflicts in the long run. Even though I feel that I've had a couple of close friends, I always feel there is this barrier of interests in which my personal interests aren't of which anybody else enjoys or cares about. The idea of complete isolation, especially from adults who tell you to go out and be with people, seems like a great idea to me also. It's as though they're completely ignoring you for who you are and telling you to be like everybody else.

Gatherings such as schools do tend to be full of like-minded people from my experience though. If there's a particular interest which you're strongly interested in, then it might be worth seeking groups or clubs or work etc. relating to it. There are likely going to be more open and willing people in those areas with their own rather unique interests. I know it's not as simple as just going out and getting into that sort of thing though, but it is always there. I do feel in a similar boat to you otherwise though, but if you want someone else to talk too and express your interests then I'd love to talk.

Basically from what I've learnt, alot of people are a**holes and only care about themselves. They are your friend because you offer them something no one else has

^ Agreed. People are selfish and self involved. I've given up on friends as well.

I'm 38 and have no associations with anyone I went to High Schrool (yeah I said Schrool) with. Most of them were either idiots or on a plane that I always admired but could never attain.

When you get older, you'll find a few good friends who are in the same situation you are in, good or bad. And they won't care about your petty differences because they'll love you anyway, and in some cases your idiosyncraticies will endear them to you even more.

you have friends on here.

Close friends are something that's easy to give up on. Just aren't worth the effort of maintaining.

I'm sorry it sucks. At least on here, you can find people who relate. Shame on the people trying to force you on kids.

Hey there...you sound how I feel:) What I mean to say is, I know the frustration and the rage that comes with wanting the same kind of connection with a friend that seems to come so easy to other people. You try so hard and in the end, it's one little superficial thing that gets in the way. Yeah, I know how it is. Sometimes, I hate people, too. (I wish I was a cat. They don't lie, hide their motives, or "read between the lines." No mind games, just meow, purr, and a chomp on the hand when I'm not dishing out the cat food fast enough:))

Oh, yes, and I know only too well about how the adults in one's life will keep pushing to initialize social interactions. I was a teenager once. It was miserable. "Be social," they'd say, "Go up and try to make friends with that other little girl." Well, that other little girl didn't want to be my friend. And who's fault was that, according to my parents, teachers and therapists? Why, mine, of course! I "scared her off," "gave too much information," blah, blah, blah...Did they ever stop to think that the problem may have been the other girl? No, of course not. I was the one with a "screw loose!"

The things you want to do, instead of being social, all sound much more preferable to me! Books, video games, music and computers are things I'd rather do, too. But after a while, it's nice to hear another voice or, in this case, read another person's words. So when you've finished that book (or 3, or 10), beaten that video game 20 times, bopped your head to some music and done lots and lots of stuff on the computer, I hope you'll come back and see all the nice things everyone has to say to you:) After all, who says socializing can't be done on a computer? It's one of the best places:)

I know this is off-topic and I hope I don't offend, but just had to tell you that I really like your choice for an avatar. Sailor Moon was my first experience with anime and I've been hooked ever since!

I'm sorry it is so rough right now. Throw me in with the "I know exactly how you feel" crowd. I just lost a friendship after 3 years. A friendship that it took a lot of energy to maintain....I think a lot of us know how much work it can be. And after all I had invested for so long, it just ended...abruptly.....and I have no idea what I could have done differently. It left me kind of lost and frustrated and jaded. Very jaded. I complete understand the wanting to be left alone.
I wish there were some solution I could offer that would help in the dealing with it day to day. All I can say is that you are definitely not alone.

At least you can say that you tried. I admittedly haven't even done that.

The thing is that you tried, which is good. A lot of people don't even try to have friends. I hope that you find the right group of friends, one day.