Latest from my personal blog:
Crazy Girl World - Enemy Territory
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11:24 – That’s the current time, and also the date my first daughter was born, November 24. Just notice little coincidences like that.
Like the title says, some days I feel like I am a$$ deep in enemy territory. I have no family here, no real friends I see on a frequent basis (or even infrequent for that matter). All my “friends” are online and live in areas too far to see them. All I know is my husband – soon to be ex, and his family, and we’ve never had any close relationship. So here I am, out in left field, feeling like I’m lost in Chaos and have nothing to help ground me, nothing to help give me direction, or support/comfort me when I need it.
I have my 5 yr old daughter, and she is the only thing that keeps me sane most days. Unfortunately she is also a huge stress for me, because I feel like I am floundering in being a good parent. Being a single mom is difficult even for perfectly healthy people. Imagine how much that is compounded when that mom has an ASD like mine, but is undiagnosed, and therefore doesn’t qualify for any help even from strangers.
I need help, but don’t know the first thing about who to ask or where to go to do that. I just feel lost, and this is really the only way I can vent – even if no one sees it.
05 Oct 2011, 10:09 pm
