ItalianStallion1119 wrote:
Well last night my friend had a party at his dad's huge house and a bunch of people where there. We had a fire in the back and I would say there about 15 kids there, 8 of us guys, 7 girls (gee if that's not foreshadowing...) Anyway I knew most of the guys but 2, and I only knew 2 of the girls from past parties/get-togethers.
Well anyway I tried talking to people but everything came out when I was talking in a group and I didn't know how to appraoch the girls without creeping them out. So basically 4 of them were taken with their boyfriends at the party. Well I noticed this 1 girl wasn't and I tried to talk to her but she was drunk and just ignored me and laughed. I noticed her and this other girl looking at me once and laughed until I looked and they had a creeped out look on and then all of a sudden, on of my friend's friend that I didn't know started to get all testy with me and he was drunk as well. I guess he was into the girl that was drunk as well and by that I mean basically f*ck-buddies. He wasn't all too happy that I tried to talk to her and I guess according to him was "trying to get in her pants," I didn't even say anything to give that impression, I flirted a little but nothing big, just a couple remarks. Well after I told him to chill very peacefully, like Gandhi, and I turn around to grab chips, he clubs me in the face from behind with a cheap shot and then keeps punchin' me in the face until others pulled him off.
He knocked me out cold for about 5 minutes. I wake up, the guy and his girl were told to leave. My friend picked me up and he's drunk so he can't bring me home and its 2:30am so I can't call my parents. So I'm stuck there. I've got a gash over my eyebrow and a really bad jaw.
So when I got up, everyone askes if I'm okay and I'm not gonna say no and ruin there fun so then everyone goes on like nothing happened. I basically sit there quiet for 2 more hours until we go in to sleep. I was the first one to go in and I go to the bathroom. While I'm in there, everyone comes in and pairs off into 6 bedrooms (his dad is loaded, his upstairs has 10 bedrooms).
So I'm sleeping on the couch while every single guy at the party is in a bed with a girl and from what I could hear, all of them had some sort of fun, whether it was making out, getting head, or having sex.
So here I am, got the crap kicked out of me for no reason, and the coward had to do it behind my back, and I'm sleeping on the most uncomfortable thing compared to the rest, while they are all screwing around and I'm hearing it.
Then we went to breakfast the next morning and their was only room for 12 where they seated us...guess who sat alone...
I'm just so sick of this feeling, I was so depressed last night that I wanted to actually drink (something I've never done,) so I could pass out and not hear that crap. I'm just sick of being alone, I mean I just want someone to like me...I don't even do anything out of the ordinary to seem like I'm desperate.
I just want someone who likes me, someone who I would have fun with, but it always ends up with me being alone.
I've been in a number of similar situations. In order in to be accepted the all idiots in the world (including the one that decked you for no reason) Is to act like them. That means being borderline narcissistic, doing drugs, acting superior and condescending to people you deem are lesser than you.
Also, making fun of and teasing people (women) seems to work for some reason. Apparently they see it as playing hard to get and they become more interested in you. (completely stupid I know)
Oh, and you have to have at least two of these qualities: Good looks, charisma, confidence, smarts, mysterious, money, good social status, and talents or skills that are impressive.
I lack all of those thing which is why I've been alone my entire life.
02 Oct 2011, 1:34 am
