aspie48 wrote:
i feel really burned out and paranoid. i am worried that i will never find a girl i like, not have many friends, and i won't get a job. the worrying about not getting a job in the future is the worst. i don't want to have the experience of being broke or living paycheck to paycheck. i hate myself a lot i am ugly, my grades suck, i have a 6 year olds personality, and i have no friends. i cut my wrist a lot. now my hands are always purple, cold, and have orange dots on them because i f*cked up my circulation. i feel i have no purpose because i just can't see myself living well in the future. i feel like i am sub human because people always treat me that way.
Oh no. Listen. I think you need to see doctors about this. A medical doctor about your poor circulation and mental health professionals about your anxiety, depression, self-harm, self-loathing, all of it. You're not subhuman, you're a one-of-a-kind human like everybody else.You can live well in the future. I know the feeling, I have had that despair quite a few times, but I got over that despair and I fully believe I can live well in the future. I believe the same for you. Please don't suffer needlessly, I really hope you are able to see these people who can help you.